Dearest all,
Waiting can be quite a painful thing to go through, kan? Ke, irritating? Eheheh - sorry la you ols have to wait for this entry, the sambungan, part 2, about my USJ group family drama celah bed thingie..

SEDUTAN DARI EPISODE 1: Click HERE to read part 1

...One by one Acu citerkan kat mek, mek dengar jer lah points2 Acu yang memberangsangkan mek itiew. Boleh jadi jugak kan? Hurm... tapi.... hmmm... ntah lah. I still tannak percaya yang Along secretly goin' out with JJ. For goodness sake Along tahu kan Atam sayang gile kat JJ. And JJ and Atam dah nearly 3 bulan couple. Takkan Along nak buat perangai cam tu? Dah la tu - Along kan ade 'Abang Long' kat Seremban tu? Hurmmmm....

"Anjang, Anjang tak tahu, ade sekali tu, last week kot, Anjang fly masa tu, Acu nampak kat phone Along, msg dari JJ!!!"... Bersambung>>

"Ha.. ape yang Acu nampak?"
"Ala - tah, msg geli2 la, macam, 'I miss you' la itu la ini la. 'I love u' pon ade Anjang!!! Eeee! Geli geleman Acu nengoknye!"
"Acu ade cakap kat Atam?"
"Aiyoh! Gile ke Anjang nih!?!?! Nak mampos? Confirm makan hati ulam pegaga cicah ngan sambal belacan si Atam itiew..."

Things like this lah I really terasa kesian + sedeh; for both pihak, yang dicelah bedah, dan yang mencelah bedah! (Celah bedah means - cut in queue/ perampas/merampas kekasih orang). Why I cakap cam itiew? Yooo lah! Kesian ok yang dicelah bedah itiew. Elok2 ade laki, dah kawan celah bed. Dan KESIAN+SEDEH="MAAAAATIIII LA KO" yang celah bed tu - macam seghupa tarak jantan lain dalam dunia nih hang nak rampas? Dah la tu - rampas kawan hang punye lover pulak tu? Itu ke namanya KAWAN? Dah la tu - mengaku kakak kepada si Atam pulak si Along itiew? Mek vencis la kalau dah jadik cam tu. Tapi since it has nothing to do with me, directly, mek diamkan aje....

So time flies and soon - dari teruk jadi parah; the condition I mean. Along semakin berani keluar terang2 depan kami serumah dengan si JJ itiew, time2 Atam tak der, fly. Kezi kan? Bile kami pandang, dia (Along) akan sentiasa give this remark,

"Cover utk Along k? Thanks... saaaaayang adik2 Along semua... "

Maaaaaaaaaaati la ko Along! Aku, selagi Atam tak bukak mulut datang mengadu ngan mek, your secret is safe with me Along. Kalau Atam datang crying her heart out, mengadudamba semua dengan mek, NAH! That's it! Mek akan cerits kan semua segala mala, provided Atam asks lah. Mek tannak lah ceritakan sendiri tanpa disoal Atam, kang, jadik lain pulaknye, kan? Ehehehe...

It wasn't long before Atam came to us all seekin' the truth and justifications. Time2 tu, kesian nengok si Atam- I mean, macam dah tak terurus sikit. Very macam angau gittiew....

"Acu, Anjang... Angah, Acak (Ateh wasn't there, kerej! Along also kerej, fly ke mana tah. JJ not in the picture...) - tolong la Atam... tell me what's goin' on? Atam dapat rase kan sesuatuh yang tak kena nih... please? Atam tau korang ade sembunyikan sesuatuh dari Atam..." pujuknya si Atam - mek dah serba salah dah, Acu lagi lah! Tak leh nak duduk diam diam dah....

Angah bangun dan as he walked up the stairs,

"Atam - Angah naik atas nih bukan sebab tak kuasa nak melayan Atam - tapi Angah tannak terlibat dlm drama swasta episode kali nih. Angah harap Atam paham dengan perangai Angah..."

Curlast kan Cik Ngah?!? Tannak terlibat konon - eheheh - sah sah dia banyak kali tolong seludup Along keluar jumpa JJ naik kete Cik Ngah - sbb Along dinch ade kereta lagi time tu. JJ pun kalau si Atam ade, and Atam nak jumpe kengkawan, mesti tak bawak JJ dan Atam akan drive his car. So JJ? Matikudasai kakipatasan lah sbb tak der kereta! So in the end (bak kata Linkin' Park itiew) - cik Ngah lerrr kena bawak Along gi jumpe JJ...

Anyways... berbalik pada kes Atam nih. Melalui ceritanya, JJ dah berubah perangai, no more loving2. JJ dah kurang SEKS dengan dia, tak seperti waktu awal2 dulu. (Kesiannn, kan? Mesti ponen nih gerdus tahap mabuques!!!) And then, JJ dah secretive dalam banyak hal (That's SO ALONG!). Pastu katanye si Atam lagi, dia noticed satu dua bende yang FUNNY dalam umah JJ. JJ lives alone, and rarely bawak balik guests. Kalau bawak balik also, mestilah sampai ke living room jer, kan? Ini - Atam noticed something different di BILIK TIDUR JJ dan Atam. Mek curious... mek tanye je lah...

"Apenye yang berbeza itiew u ols?"
"JJ smokes Dunhill Lights - dan dalam bilik JJ, ade bekas abu rokok (meaning to say, ashtray dalam bilik tidur JJ satu ade, dekat luar ie living room also ade) yang ade putung rokok Marlboro MERAH! Kalau kat luar, ok lah jugak. Ini dlm bilik tidur tu! Mesti ade org masuk bilik tidur JJ! And plus! Ade kotak susu UHT Dutch Lady perisa Chocolate yang dah diminum ok!!"

Haiyoh! Very detailed tau si Atam nih. Well - that happens when u sayangkan orang and u care for them -mesti semua nak kena amik kire, even ke putung rokok JENIS ape... Balik kepada isu putung rokok and the kotak susu itiew - Acu tgk me, me tgk Acak - I had that feeling the three of us MEMANG dah tahu sapa, I'm sure ATAM knows it too tapi macam dinch mau jump into conclusions yet kot? Yeap - its ALONG! Aliong smokes Marlboro Merah, Along LOVES Susu UHT Dutch Lady Chocolate tu... siape lagi?

And then, there's more...

"Anjang, Acak... Acu... cakap la kat Atam... It's Along kan?"

Nahhh!! Terpelohong bijik mata sekor2 dgr Atam cakap cam tu. Meaning, tau jugak la dia?

"Atam tahu korang serba salah tapi seriously, Atam tak tahan macam nih. Hari tu dalam beg JJ, Atam ade nampak roster Atam, dan belakang tu, ada roster ALONG! Diroster kami berdua, Atam perhatikan, JJ dah bulatkan hari2 off Atam dan hari2 off Along. Cantik sangat jadual kami. Time2 Along fly, Atam ade kat KL. Time2 Atam fly, time2 tu la Along ade kat KL. Bukan Atam tak tahu, Along banyak cable dalam rostering department. I'm sure dia dah buat something. Kalau tidak, takkan lah cantik sangat roster dia ngan Atam, yer lah, macam, tah - well planned?"

Lagi kami semua terdiam. Rupe2nya Atam ade lebih infos dari kami serumah. Namun, apa kan daya kami... tunduk, hangguk2kan kepala jer la. Tetiber jer, Along BALIK katanya!!! Daily flight jer mek rase time tu. So, nah... THAT'S IT! Matilah ko Along!!!

"E eh Atam!? Ade jugak? Bila kau sampai nyeh?"
"Asal? Tak leh nak dtg dah ke?"
"Le... apehal ngan kamu nih Atam... ehehe. Along tanye je..."
"Oh ye? Asal tak tanye JJ SEKALI!?"

Haiyoh! Atam macam dah up kan sikit suaranya... MEK TAKUT OK! Ehehehe. Along on the other hand, membisu tibe2.

"Kenape? Terkejut Atam tanye cam tu? Along ingat Atam nih bodoh sangat ke?"
"Apa Atam merepek nih...Along tak tahu apa apa..."

Nah lepas tu sattttuu per satu si Atam huraikan... hujah demi hujan, bahan bukti demi bahan bukti - sampai bill telephone umah dan hp JJ dia jadikkan bukti - calling umah USJ3 dan HP ALONG katanye - outgoin' SMS pun kan ade dlm itemised bills itiew? THAT'S IT! SMS ke hp ATAM 10% - ke hp ALONG 80% - 10% lagik, lain2 pihak. Ehehehehe. And lepas Atam habis berceramah semua segala mala, Along yang tgh lepak, sambil isap rokok, dengan muka slamber...

"So? We're just friends? Ape Atam nak kecoh? JJ ade hak nak keluar ngan sapa2 pon, kalau sekadar kawan... Atam bising2, Atam tau tak JJ cakap kat Along yang Atam nih just friends dengan dia? Sebab tu dia keluar dengan Along jugak..."

Nyeh - berdesingggggg telinga aku sampai masuk ke gegendang dah nih! Sakitnye hati aku dgr cara Along cakap with the expression - very Ziana Zain, peramps!!!!!

"Along - Atam tannak kecoh apa apa pun. Cuma... HOW COULD YOU? You called yourself kakak, and called me your adik. And yet you do this? You said we're friends, and friends don't go stabbing at the back of another friend. You said you're a loyal lover to Abang Long in Seremban, now this? Please lah - once I looked up to you, as a sister, a family, a friend, a collegue, above all, as a true nice human being. NOW? I only will continue looking at you, like a piece of SHIT!"

Nahhh, THAT'S IT! A piece of SHIT katanye? That's it! Lepas tu, Atam terus keluar, blah cam tu jer. Nangis2 dia lari ke kereta. Si Along siap "Whatever" terus naik atas. Gila kan pondan tu? Kerana JANTAN sanggup biarkan kawan, 'adik', terluka sebegitiew... Lepas pada tu, Atam moved out of JJs, Along kept on seeing JJ, siap moved in during the weekends provided Along tak fly la kan (which most of the weekends memang Along tak fly - go figure lah; rostering department?? Cable baiikkk punye???) - and they were together for awhile, which lasted for only 2 months jer (2 months lepas JJ clash dengan Atam). Pastu JJ buat bende yang sama kat Along, sama macam dia buat kat Atam dulu (What a jerk!) - but even after knowing Along dah tarak pa pa dengan JJ, Atam TETAP keras kepala dan degil dinch mau datang langsung ke USJ home tu, langsung menyendiri. Kesian. Tapi dengan Acu, Acak, me, Angah, Ateh, dia ade la sms, call jarang. Kesian pulak tgk dia waktu tu. Waktu tu dia jadik kurus gile2 babeng!

Ade sekali tu,waktu tu Along still ngan JJ; Along balik dari flight - citer lah kat kami serumah. Waktu tu mek tak der, tapi CNN mek si Acu yang calling mek kasik tau mek yang waktu tu ade kat mana tah, tgh flying kots. Anyways... Along balik dari flight ape tah, citer lah, dia satu flight dengan si Atam. Si Atam refused to talked to him, keje satu Zone pun tannak la itu la ini la, and dia (Along) citer how she couldn't be bothered about Atam yang berperangai cam tu. Dgr sebelah pihaks dinch boleh tau. So mek balik dari flight, mek bawak Acu ngan Acak keluar gi jumpe Atam and we asked citer dari sebelahnye pulak. It's basically the same, Atam memang tak melayan, tapi Along TETAP CUBA NAK BERCAKAP dan berBAIK2 dngn Atam. Katanye si Along, Along malas nak layan Atam. Tapi Atam cakap, Along terhegeh2 nak berbaik2 dengannya balik. Haiyoh! Fonkiused ok! Tapi kesimpulannye, sampai ke sudah Atam tak maafkan Along ok. Haiyoh - takut ok hidup tak dimaafkan dosa dan kesalahan sesama manusia. Isk isk isk. Takut sundelll!

Itu lah dia namanya, rona kehidupan, kan u ols? Tak kire lah straight ke, lessies ke, gayahs ke drags queens ker ape ke - hidup nih, tak semestinya kawan tu sebaik2 alam, dia tak mungkin jadi perampas, kan? Tapi si perampas pon, kite tak leh nak salahkan dia jugak, right or not? Why? Becoz, si perampas also manusia ma. Tahu la yang dirampasnya tu, kekasih org. Tapi kalau dah dia minat sangat2 dan nak yang tu jugak, apa apa cara sekali pun si perams musti buat utk dapatkan apa dia mau- But that doesn't apply to all lah kot.

Basically dlm entry, apa yang mek kesal, ialah - it happened to my friends... and the saddest part is, they gaduh becoz of a man... tsk tsk tsk... (I know I would fight for my man; if he's worth fighting for la kan. Ehehehe)





Nurlea Laurielle Lai Lee Abdullah

I was in my page early this morning, say somewhere around 3am somethin'... couldn't be bothered much.

I decided to again vote for my page, yes, again! Eheheh (Jgn kate keji ek- I bet other bloggers pon majority also buat self-voting sbb nak upkan position kat MTB tu! Ehehehe). So when I clicked the Malaysia Top Blogs button to vote for my page, the usuals - it'll lead me to the voting site of my page and then redirected to MTB's main page.



The main page of Malaysia Top blog caught my attention as my blog was actually the "Blog Of The Day"!



Seriously u ols. Keranagkalian nak terserempak our own page as Blog Of The Day memang susah sekals sbb, yer lah, bukannye kite masuk always pon MTB tu. Kalau masuk pun, sekadar sekali sehari utk voting. TU jer. So I captured the moment my blog was displayed as Blog Of The Day as I may not get the chance to see this again... :) *mek tetiber feeling like Blog Of The Year pulak? Eheheh tetiber kan? Blog of the Week and Blog of the Month pun tak der, terus nak feeeling Blog Of The Year? KEXI LAH! Ekekeke*



But on the other hand, rankin' mek dalam MTB's blog category (BlogDrive) tetap maintain. Bukan, bukan maintain di rank ke 4, TETAPI TETAP maintain dibawah blog mak ayem Sherita! Eheheheeh. I wish I have all the guts, just like her. Tapi, apa kan daya, dia, dia lah. Mek, mek lah. Tapi FYI - Sherita ngan mek punye aim, tetap sama. It is to be ranked dlm top 5 bersama kengkawan PLU lain, LEEZ, dan yang lenglain yang dah registered di MTB. Me and Sherits wanna sampaikan msg - biarlah kami semua nih PLU - tapi kami also GIFTED dalam penulisan dan pengeluaran idea2 bernas, funny, sedeh, scarry - semua kami mampu. And that's why Sherits and me wants top 10 nanti (InsyaAllah) di dominasikan oleh geng2 kite semua jugak...



We are that 'Someone'; we are that 'Somebody' - if ONLY we allow ourselves to be one... - LEA




Nurlea Laurielle Lai Lee Abdullah

Dearest all - especially to Zairil...



This is a special entry; no, it's not like any other special entries - this is different. It's an entry which I hope, akan 'jernihkan kembali keadaan yang telah keruh'. What happened was some stupid misunderstanding which may, or should I say, have caused a price of a friendship, a relationship between two human beings, and above all, it made me sick and miserable, thinkin' about it.

How do I amend my mistakes? I've sent Zairil a personal email; and what I'm gonna do, is that I'm gonna publish that email which I sent to him, sebagai tanda yang I'm really really sorry. I buat ini semua secara terbuka so that people and the world know that I have treated you (Zairil) bad and that I wanted to say I'm sorry and hope that you'll forgive me and give me that second chance, the same second chance you've asked from me as well... NO, I tak malu nak tunjuk to the world that I'm sorry for what I have done to this man. Call me mengada2 wanna menunjuk2 about all this - tapi with this, I hope, HE (Zairil) will understand that I am truly sorry dan I sanggup do anything to tebuskan my cold-ill-treatments I gave him and made him feel bad and miserable and what not. So it's true - what goes around, comes around. He felt misserable and what not for not knowing what he did wrong to me, although later he found out that he did have some fair share in this dramatic problem but - what I have discovered is this; I'm more to be blamed for and that I am utterly feeling bad and lousy about all this... and above all, I knew what he did wrong, but I didn't tell him and went blasting pissed with him, which is ultimately, WRONG!

To have him like a friend, a shoulder to cry on, an 'abang' - God, I really did not treat him the way he should have been treated. What I did was way beyond kemaafannye; ignored him, refused to email him, deleted his YM offline msgs - all for what? After trying to show my 'keras kepala' dan 'mengada-ngada'ness to him, all I got was, feeling guilty, sorry and miserable!



From: Nurlea Laurielle Lai Lee lea_laurielle@hotmail.com
To: xxxxxxxxxxx_kl@hotmail.com, xxxxxxx.xxxxxx@gmail.com, xxxxxxxxxxxx@yahoo.com
Subject: I am sorry
Sent: Friday, April 22, 2005 8:20:52 PM


Dearest Abang...

Let me begin this email with "I am SORRY". I was AGAIN acting babyish and did things without thinkin' straight. I am to be punished but please don't say we're ending this and also that you're not coming to AS next week, PLEASE? I DO want to see you. I may have acted or sounded as if I don't want to, and the fact that I showed the rest that I couldn't be bothered or care less if u dtg ke tak datang ke ape ke, but the truth is IN ME- I am separuh mati teringin sangat nak jumpa Abang.

I know after what I did, I may not dimaafkan tapi, Abang juga ada mintak second chance. So here I am pleading for one too, give me one more chance. Tell me that it's not too late.

Dalam hal tempoh hari - Abang ada salah, I ada salah. Maybe I am more to be blamed. Not you, not your simple life and definitely not your "no-complicated-things-in-my-life" attitude as well- You're not to be blamed. I am. And I am sorry. Please please let me prove to you that I have learned 3 valuable lessons from you... which I will tell IF you come to AS as planned.

I guess I was acting bitchy about it becoz I tersentak dengan the way you misjudged what I said. You didn't realized what I meant and I didn't bother to realize that you didn't realize it. I jumped into conclusions cepat2.

Time after time, kita sering bergaduh. But dont you realize that we're learning more and more each day? Belajar nih banyak teknik - maybe this is OUR way to learn about each other. Please Abang. Jgn dera I cam nih. I felt bad ptg tadik when my line was cut - NO I DIDN'T HANG UP. your call was diverted to my other phone. And diverted calls pun ade charges. So my 016 tu credits dah habis when we were talking. Seriously. I wanted to say more. I wanted to say I'm sorry and I wanted to say I wanna see you. But I guess semuanya dah changed. You probably dah bencikan me dengan my perangai. Nothing you've imagined huh? I'm so sorry but please, I've screwed big time ptg tadi - please let me make it up all for u?

I don't know - I guess I wanted your attention more. I guess, I was, babyish, my actions memang sial. My attitude towards you was way beyond kemaafan. So all i'm asking is this - kalau betul u tannak get anything to do with me anymore, you dah bencikan i... and tannak dtg AS next week - at least please do tell me u maafkan I for all the things I have said, salah buat dan what not. Ampunkan I.

I really hope for that second chance...
I really hope to see you in AS
I really hope to sit down, minum2 makan2, lepak2, gelak2 with you - ngada2 buat lawak and what not with you....







Yours truly,

Nurlea Laurielle Lai Lee Abdullah

A special entry to that special someone [You KNOW who you are, so don't bother to double check and ask me, ok?*wink wink* I love you too...].

I just had to do this. It'll make me feel, much better. Sorry - I know it's just another lyric of a song by Beyonce Knowles but, hey - everyone has the every right to have his or her favorite song/ lyrics, right? So here's mine - and it's especially for him!!!

Dangerously In Love

I love you...
I love you...
I love you...

Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops
I am the seed
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby I'm so proud
Proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and misty world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me (2x)

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side


I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me (2x)

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To live you

Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing, yea
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me
Oh no
I'm in love with you,I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
Dangerous
Dangerously in love, with you
Oh I love you
I love you, love you
love you, love you
love you, I love you
Oh yes
I love you
I love you, love you
love you, love you
Love with you
Love you
I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you
Dangerously in love...

Hey peeps, wassup...

Remember my entry on "Drag Queen; In love with a straight guy"? Well kali nih, I decided to write berteraskan konsep/tema yang sama, love, cinta. Tapi this time, it's somewhat a bit different...

"Love; Sh*ts that people go through in life just because of love" - how they sanggup, kan?

In "Drag Queen; In love witha straight guy", t'was basically having a drag queen ie me as the center of attraction of the two love-story examples entry. But in this entry, we're not seeing ME as the main character in this story ( OH THANK GOD SAYS MISS G!) - it happened to a friend of mine, but somehow or rather I knew what he/she went through, and I understood clearly how he/she must have felt. By the end of the day, you'll be able to conclude the fact that - sh*ts in life can be caused by 'Love' and sh*ts in love can be caused by friends, and the ones you trusted... But most of all - Sh*ts of Love, can happen to just about ANYONE...

It was in the year of 2001; I was very close with this group, so-called my Airline/USJ group; Along, Acak, Angah, Atam, Anjang, Ateh, Acu... semuanya ikut seniority age la I guess. Tapi, eh, tak jugak. By right, Acak yang paling berumur. Tapi dalam rumah tu, Along la ala ala paling senior walaupun umur dia sama dengan mek (Anjang). Well figured, Acu paling muda. So oklah. Everyone of us were in the airline, but different departments lah kan. Along, Atam and me (Anjang) - the three of us were in the Cabin Crew department, and the rest, were in the Ground Staff department. Bottom line of this first paragraph of the story, semuanye very der rapat, very! I may have my own place tapi whenever tak der flight for couple of days, di USJ4 lah tempat I akan stay with these USJ plu/ 'adik'2 family; we would drag lite2 sugi, we would dressed up, and then buat show dalam rumah - amik video cam - very lawak. We were like sisters, very close ok. And bile dah semua so close, biasala. Bile ade shubern (bf) - semuanye nak kenalkan to each other lah, macam adik ipar la, abang ipar lah gittu. I remembered I introduced mine, but since the love of my life couldn't be bothered much as he's very busy with his work, so most of the time it was me jer yang lepak situ, and whenever he nak balik to my place, I would end up balik rumah I just to be with my lover. Tapi, this is not about me *ketuk kepala!* Doink right! Ehehehe.

The drama in this family happened when Atam brought back a gorgeous hunk back to USJ4. Even mek ternganga terpelohong mulut nih tgk. Hamsem gilos babeng! (Oh ps - we were adik adiks ok, so don't bother to ask we ols drag ke tidak - answer- no, we were adik2 who drags part time jer - most of the time, jambu la gittu... Hehehehe)

So anyways, Atam introduced this guy to:
-Along (who apparently tak suke sangat when Atam brings back men to the house as Atam memang SELALU bawak balik guys yang diclaimnye nak jadik future lover la walhal - ado? Nan ado! - second reason why Along always sentap - kat umah USJ tu, Along, Acak, Angah, Ateh, and Acu jer yang membayar sewa, as ME and ATAM have our own place somewhere near the neighbourhood also. So macam, paham tak? Along tak suke lah- nak bawak balik cik tan, semata2 utk dikenalkan, ok la. Ini - very der, nak bertumpang memantat. Ketua rumah mana yang suke? Kan?)
So Atam continued kenalkan kat:
-Acak (yang dah menggeletis with ME dah tgk this guy. Haiyoh. Hammmseeemmm ok!)
Then lepas itiew he introkan to:
-Angah (yang seriously couldn't be bothered; sebab menumpukan perhatian kepada dunia dikaca TV)
Then bersambung to:
-Me (yang sama2 menggeletis cikpuks dengan si Acak)
Then dikenalkan piula mamat nih kepada:
-Ateh (yang waktu nih dah juling dah bijik mata melihat)
And finally dikenalkan kepada:
-Acu (yang very maintain Siti - she likes Siti anyways... fanatic bitch ok!)

SO anyways, the name was Jeff. EX crew also, waktu tu, the whole house macam terdiam ala2 ma'laikat lalu nih. Then borak sana borak sini - we all became close, sekejap jer semua dah mesra2 alam.

Dalam umah tu pada waktu tu, Along dah berlaki (di Seremban katanya), Acak (single mingle dan suka Angah), Angah pulak (dinch mau melayan Acak lalu melayan chickens2) then me (yang dah sedia maklum berlaki time tu) then, Ateh ( the well maintained slut) and finally Acu (the single minggle tapi time tu dirisik laki orang) ehehehe. So it looked as if everyone's happy! TENNNEEETTT!! WRONG!

Along never liked JJ (that's what we call this Jeff, JJ) - atas alasan ape, mek dinch tahu lah pulak since mek kurang periksa. When Atam brought JJ back to USJ home in April - semuanye ok. Atam pun dah kurang membinatangkan dirinya lagi sebab nak concentrate dengan JJ which was good. May- they were the most purrrfectttt gayboy/adik2 couple yang mek leh nampak. Memang secocok. Then in June, Atam mula slow in coming to USJ4. Bukan sebab dia selalu lepak dengan JJ kat umah Atam in USJ14 - tapi sebab Atam moved in ala ala lite2 dengan JJ in Bukit Jalil. Woho. Waktu mek dapat tahu, I was like, "Oowwwh... ok..." Tapi sebenarnye, haiyoh! Wasn't that a bit toooooooo soon? Tak per. Hidup Atam kan? Tapi we were like concerned jer, kan.... Soon we ols found out, JJ yang dah resigned from MAS tu, was menganggur dan tgh carik kejer. Due to kesempitan kewangan kot, he sold his Jeep yang dia selalu bawak Atam ulang alik KLIA hantar amik Atam gi and balik flight tu. So lepas sell off the Jeep, mek noticed diaorang rajin jolly shandy enjoy menjoy! Tang2 malam keluar. Very der. Pastu how they moved about? Dengan kereta Atam lah.

THEN, late June - mek yang selalu lepak in USJ4 tu, selalu perasan Along asyik keluar curik2. I say, MOTIF? Hmmm - tak per lah. Hak dia. Then, Along mula being sooooooo secretive. Dengan siapa dia keluar, kenape dia keluar, date dia tak amik kat umah lah, phone, haiyoh PANTANG ok - tak leh ditinggal. Takut kami semua nih curik2 tgk. Hmmm... entah lah. Life dia katanye. (YES YES some of you dah boleh agak where this is goin' kan? Tapi wait, it's not as easy and as predictable as you might have thought it would be). So anyways, one day, JJ came to the house, askin' for Atam...

"Anjang, Atam ade tak?"
"Motifnya? Takkan bini sendiri gi flight pun tarak tau? Haper punye laki lah. Dia kan balik malam nih..."
"Saje nak double check. I don't have his roster for this month"
That's funny - Atam photocopied roster June DEPAN mata mek dan dia cakap nak passkan kat JJJ. Hilang kot mek rase. Apa apa jer lah...
"Along and the rest, mane?"
Terbeliak kejap bijik kelents mek. MOTIF ALONG!?
"Along ade kat atas - katanya nak keluar dengan kawan. Angah ngan Acak and Ateh kerej. Acu also ade kat atas..."
"Ic ic...."
Mek tgk si JJ nih macam rimas jer, tak leh nak duduk diam. Tibe tibe...
"Pssst! Anjang! Sini lah!" bisik Acu dari atas...
"Apo?"
"Naik lah kejaps!!!"
Hish - adik aku si Acu, dengan mek - MEMANG very kuat gossip! Ade la tu story dia....
"Anjang - JJ kat bawah kan?"
"Ha ah - kenapasal?"
"Errrmm...Along nak keluar kan?"
"Ha ah - kenapasal nih Acu?"
"Diaorang keluar together ke?"
"Hish kamu nih - always tau suke nak buat2 suspek2 itiew ini. Dah dah. Along kata nak keluar dengan kawan dia. Si JJ pulak, Anjang rase dia tunggu si Atam balik..."
Sembang punye sembang - mek dgr pintu bilik tertutup - bunyi tapak kaki berlari turun anak2 tangga kayu itiew, then booom! Pintu bawah pulak tertutup. I wonder?

Nah! Check2 - true enough. JJ wasn't there. And so was Along also dinch ade lagi in her room. Hurm. Kebetulan jer kot JJ keluar time sekali Along keluar? Who knows? I couldn't be bothered...

I continued tgk tv - when Acu tibe2 duduk sebelah I...
"Anjang - Acu rase tak sedap hati lah..."
"Kenape nye Acu? Habaq kat Anjang - awatnya?"
"Tu - Along tu. Acu rase confirm dia keluar dengan JJ!"
"Hish! Tak baik menuduh lah Acu.. Tak der bukti pun..."
"NAK BUKTI!? Nih Acu nak citerkan..." dan bermula lah gossip2 sambungan... eheheh.

One by one Acu citerkan kat mek, mek dengar jer lah points2 Acu yang memberangsangkan mek itiew. Boleh jadi jugak kan? Hurm... tapi.... hmmm... ntah lah. I still tannak percaya yang Along secretly goin' out with JJ. For goodness sake Along tahu kan Atam sayang gile kat JJ. And JJ and Atam dah nearly 3 bulan couple. Takkan Along nak buat perangai cam tu? Dah la tu - Along kan ade 'Abang Long' kat Seremban tu? Hurmmmm....

"Anjang, Anjang tak tahu, ade sekali tu, last week kot, Anjang fly masa tu, Acu nampak kat phone Along, msg dari JJ!!!"

Ikuti sambungan true-love-drama entry nih esok nah? Last part dah esok. Worry not -bukannye ten episode pon citer nih. Ish ish ish... ehehehe.



Nurlea Laurielle Lai Lee Abdullah

Dearest all,
The tagboard is back up again on my page! (Note: I brought it back up because I wanted it) And yes yes- the tagboard has been cleaned and cleared from pathetic msgs from pathetic lalats! Hehehe.

And guess what? Nurlea Laurielle Lai Lee is back on track also. So- those lalats penyamaran think you dah berjaya is it? Well - particially maybe. I may have cried my lungs out yesterday - because I was only human. Oh wait, no no, I was no ordinary human. I was somewhat special, who drew a lot of attentions and became centre of every attractions. Too bad! You have to work harder to bring me down, hardiharharhar!

I gave ways to some, to bring me down- not just in the real world out there but also in here, in my own blogpage, yesterday. So since I'm no longer active in the real world i.e. KL as for the time being, you think you can just simple sabo me lah in my own blogpage? Think again lalats... eheheh - sbb I decided that I will not stay still and let myself be brought down by some stupid jokers penyamar a.k.a lalats dlm my own blog. This is my blog, my world, my life - nyyyaahhh kau dari sini if you have nothing else better to do, coz I have better things to do and think about. And beside, since this blogpage is mine, I RULE! Take it or leave it, lalatz! Ehehehehehe. Mek suke mek suke! Ehehe...

PS- This Should have been my first entry for TODAY THURSDAY 21st APRIL. Tapi it became the second entry sbb I posted my interview with TT, baru jer tadi.Entry tu dah siap semalam lagi, but since server blogdrive down, mek tak dapat nak post that entry earlier. Ehehehehe. Tak pa tak pa.... tarkik (tak kisah) lah u ols... :)




Nurlea Laurielle Lai Lee Abdullah

Dearest all,
Remember, recently I promised to those yang wanting to get to know The Talented Tukang Taip 2005 a lil'bit more, of an interview with TT, himself? :) Well, finally, after like a week dia dah reply (can't blame TT - he memang busy pun. Thank God he took like only one week jer, buatnye dia busy one month? Nanges ok!) So anyways, he replied to me on Tuesday early morning kot. And so here it is. The answers TT dah jawab to my questions via email.

NOTE: Sorry I couldn't go lebih personal dari ini sbb TT and me agreed that I takkan involvekan something too personal - kalau tidak, he said "Things I can answer, I'll answer. Things I can't, I'll just leave 'em..." And knowing ME, mana suke my questions ditinggal2kan gittu jer. SO I took the liberty to bebetul THINK carefully soalan2 yang tidak akan menyentapkan dia becoz if he does sentap, he'll leave those questions unanswered. So akan nampak la like very the incomplete. So I decided to be very on-the-line jer. Tannak tooooo personal. Kalau nak tooooo personal, gi la tanye dia personally. Ehehehehe.

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From: "Hazman Halid" (xxxxxx@xxx.us)
To: "Nurlea Laurielle Lai Lee Abdullah" (lea_laurielle@yahoo.com)
Subject: RE: Questions
Date: Tue, 19 Apr 2005 01:29:22 +0800

Hi Lea :-D

Here are the answers.

Hazman

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1.How would you like to introduce yourself to my blog readers? Briefly.
I'm just another ordinary guy who blends right into any LRT crowd. :-)


2.What do you do currently?
I architect and write computer software for my clients. I'm a freelancer, but my clients include corporate giants. I took a break from the corporate world since late last year, after being frustrated with the local work climate. Found out that the only way to survive was to try to make it out on my own. So far the returns have made it worthwhile, while teaching me to be brave when confronted with the risks in life.

3.Do you have any hobbies?
I have little leisure time left out of my busy life to afford a stable hobby. But when I do, I love traveling. I like going to beaches. The salty smell of sea air, the sound of crashing waves, the sight of an endless ocean, and the wind blowing all over your body -- the feeling is indescribable.

I've also acquired a new passion for blogging lately. I started to blog last February. Blogging helped me to release some of the frustrations in going through my divorce during its earlier months. I erased my first blog and recreated a new blog late February -- as what you see these days. I didn't realize how many people were coming to my blog until one day, I tried
putting a page counter. Seeing 250 hits a day (from an assumption of, maybe, 10) really took me by surprise.


4.Do you do sports?
I used to bowl competitively when I was in school and during my early college years. I represented the state in a couple of tournaments and won a few medals. But I stopped after I started getting busy with studies. I don't play any sports these days, but I do make a point to work out in the gym a few times a week.

5.Describe your best quality and your worst quality?
My clients and peers consider my talents to be exceptional in my line of work -- I need to be, to stay competitive and win projects. My worst quality is probably the lack of discipline to have a structured profession and life.I need freedom in order to thrive.

6.Name 5 things you cannot live without?
1 - My cellphone
2 - My scooter or car
3 - Accessibility to the internet
4 - Money (obviously)
5 - My laptop

7.You've spent nearly 10 years abroad. What was it like? Personal wise and work wise?
I was alternating between Canada, Malaysia and the US during those years, writing software for various companies.

I was out there with my family, so it wasn't that bad. All those years were a journey of self-discovery. I did spend a lot of time looking deep within myself and digging out answers that were previously unanswered. I discovered what makes me angry, happy, frustrated, and the events in my past that shaped me to be what I became.

Professionally, I adapted to be competitive at an international level. The exposure to a more rigorous software development environment earned me a technical advantage upon returning here. Sadly, due of the uniqueness of the local IT landscape, I found myself overqualified for most technical positions here and the US/Canadian experience actually worked _against_
me in seeking a job.

8.Do you handle q/a columns anywhere? Or do you plan to have one? We know you're good in IT. Would you share your knowledge and experiences?
Actually, to say that I'm good in IT is generalizing it because IT is a very wide area. I am very focused in software development, and even in that, I only do Microsoft-based solutions. It's probably more accurate to say I am good in Microsoft software development.

I did answer questions in the past, between 1998 and 2002. From the US, I had actually been answering on average 30 questions a day in sembang.com, bincang.net, mind.com.my and ittutor.net (long before I became famous for a different reason LOL). The people who asked me were college students and local programmers, and it's paying off because I'm now getting
assignment calls from these same people because they trust my abilities.

Due to time constrains these days, I only give professional consultations, but if I feel I can afford the time in the future, I may start a column in my blog to answer software development questions like before.

9.Personal question. As we know, you're a divorcee. Are you with anyone now? A simple yes or no.
Yes I am. :-)

10.You're a dad, a father, a papa. what's it like to be one?
It feels good to be loved and to be able to love. The kids are a good source of fun for me, and they keep me young because I play with them a lot. Now that they're growing bigger, the relationship gradually takes a different shape because they're able to carry more intelligent conversations.

Having kids also aid in understanding my own self. The behavior we see in the kids is the essence of what we really are. Ahmad inherits my sense of humor, my mischief, my inability to sit down. Nuri inherits my impatience, intelligence and creativity. Anees inherits her mom's feminity. I see all that in the kids.


11.When you got your first child, how was it like?
I was nervous -- like any new dad -- in that labor room. I was in that room all along, from start to end. I finished all the paper towels, wiping clean that stuff that spilled on the bed, and the nurses scolded me. The sight of Nuri coming out was indescribable. After they finished wrapping her, I sat by her cot and she looked at me, and I swear I saw her winking. I felt proud of having my own daughter and kept coming to the display window to see her among the other babies.

12.What were your preparations to become a dad?
Well, the first thing I did was selling off my big bike and buying a Kancil. I bought lots of diapers way ahead of time just so I could get used to buying them. It felt different buying these things for the first time.

13.How would you describe your relationship with your kids?
Most of the time, I'm one of them. I play with them, talk like them, tickle them and ask them about their favorite things. I encourage them to think for themselves and grow in their own direction, as long as they're doing well in school. I'm not perfectionist about their school scores, but when I hear them getting upwards of 90% in their school tests, it's all good enough for me. I don't want to push them too hard like many parents here like to do.I'd rather they have a balanced, rich life than be a school robot. I try not to have to be an authoritarian unless I have to. They already have their mother for that, so the yin and yang works, I think.


14.Would you agree that by being strict and firm, you would be in total control of your kids? Would that be advisable? Or do you have your own ways to control them i.e. teaching them the ways of life?
I do not want to have total control on them, because it will only make them dependent on me when it comes to making decisions. And what will happen when I'm no longer around? I would rather train them in other ways -- such as giving them an exposure to international cultures that help give a head start in opening up their mind, and then take it from there. I do give
advice if they ask me (if I think my advice would be crappy, I don't), and I do monitor their behavior among themselves and tell them if they're crossing each other's border.

15.Is it hard to be a single-dad?
Fortunately, after some adjustments to the divorced life, the mom and I have arrived at a friendly relationship, and we are able to share our custody of the kids without getting into a tug-o-war. Sometimes when I think about it, with the burdens of being married off my back, being single allows me to max out on my energy toward the kids and give them a totally positive and affectionate experience when they're around their father. I also have
my mother and the maid to care for them whenever I can't be around.

16.What would your word of advice be to those who eagerly wants to have kids?
Be financially stable first, because not having it could be a source of fights later on. Have only the number of kids that you're willing to spend time on. It's not hard to make babies, but fulfilling your responsibilities for them is.

17.Lastly, should there be anyone interested to contact you, maybe they wanna ask some IT related stuffs or about 'becoming-a-single-dad' or what not, how can they reach you? Any page, or email add or something?

They can send me an email at tukangtaip@gmail.com. I do not answer questions individually (unless it can be made short, sweet and impersonal), but if there's something I can answer publicly in my blog, I'll do so. (TT's blog URL is http://tukangtaip2005.blogspot.com)

Thank you so much for your time!
My pleasure, Lea!

Dearest all,
This entry dibuat khas utk Kak Leen, one of my blogreader. So sorry sbb I had to do this. Sbb as for now, this is the only was I can sampaikan pesanan nih. Nak buat kat tagboard, takut msg hilang nanti. Nak keep on berbalas comment, haiyoh, susah. So mek buat kesimpulan, mek buat entry nih khas utk Kak Leen. Hehehe. Curlast dak? Ehehe...

"Dearest Kak Leen,

I think I may have recalled you yang mana satu nih. I recalled the time me went to your house kat Sri Damansara dengan Kak Nott, kan? Then we lepak for a while kat rumah you before we went to KLCC? Yes... I remember now. Although samar2, still, boleh la ingat lagi sikit2. Boy that was like what, 1999? Gawd... 6 years ago huh? Wow...

Cam mana nak get in touch with you and Kak Nott yang dah beranak pinak itiew? Haiyoh - kenape? WHY tak u ols jumpe bloggin' mek time mek kat KL duliew? Now dah here, back home, its like back to square one. Kak Nott pernah mai umah I in Kedah. Eheheh - I missed her. I wonder what happened to my abang angkat sorang lagi tu? Mukhriz kot. You know him? Sama2 dalam channel Galleri la tu....

Cam nih la kak Leen... u email me u ols punye contact number, kalau ade kak Nott punye contact number sekali also very good u ols! My email is lea_laurielle@yahoo/hotmail.com. Pilih la nak send to yahoo ke hotmail ke, id sama jugak...

I'll be waiting, nah? :)

Regards
-Me-"



Nurlea Laurielle Lai Lee Abdullah

Loving a straight guy isn’t always easy. I mean, talking from my previous experiences, I know how hard it is to be that ‘girl’ for that straight guy… but not on all occasions though. If you're lucky, you get to get that very loving and understanding - 'I love you for who and what you really are, even without make up and out of drag' kinda straight guy. And if you do get that type, boy, you're really really lucky! Haiyoh! Mek nak also! Ehehehe

^{Just another gambar hiasan la u ols, hehe... *wink wink*}

First and foremost, let’s talk about the word, ‘Love’…

“Miss Mexico, what is ‘love’ to your definition? Share it with us… Apakah pengertian ‘cinta’ bagi anda, kita kongsi bersama…”

I can still remember me ‘telan air liur’ dan mata ‘meliar’ jer, practically everywhere, as soon as I got that q – mata meliar tu, yer lah, sebok mencari jawapan pada soalan tersebut yang telah diajukan oleh the host, for me, during my Top 10 Q&A Session. It was during Miss Universe Diva 2003 at Grand Season Hotel… No no no! This is not another one of my Beauty Pageant entry. Hang on. I’ve got my point here. Yer lah! I memang kuat menyimpang. So bare with me!

Anyways…

My ridiculous answer for that question, which landed me in the 1st runner-up placing, was…

“Good evening everyone... to me, love is all about being insecure; I'm sorry, I meant being SECURED with your love ones, being with the person that you actually care for. Love is actually, something that comes from within. You can't just pretend love, just to show love, so that other people will like you. You have to have that love inside you, so people will love you for who you really are; and I think the true definition of love, is unexplainable, and it comes from within; and love, can never be- created, unless it comes from the heart. Thank you Ladies and Gentlemen”

Get the point? No? Haiyoh! What I’m trying to say here is that LOVE tak kenal JENIS manusia. STRAIGHT ke bengkok ke, gays ke lesbians ke, drag queens ke ape2 ke, as long as two manusia ade that feel-feel feeling yang very DER itiew, Love la namanye itu.

But that’s not a proper way of defining LOVE I guess. Love; carries out a lot of definitions. If we were to refer to the Merriam- Webster Online Dictionary, memang banyak definitionnye. Among its definitions would be:

(1): strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties (maternal love for a child)

(2)a: attraction based on sexual desire b: affection and tenderness felt by lovers

(3): affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests (love for his old schoolmates)

I think in this entry kali ini, LOVE yang mak maksudkan would be number 2a and 2b.

When we hear men, straight men that is, bercinta dengan either a gayboy (which jarang2 sekali berlaku, unless the gayboy is a total Jambuish type) or they bercinta with a drag queen (be it transgender or a transsexual), can we still call these men, STRAIGHT? I doubt, and I don’t think we ought to, sbb by having feelings even for a full post op transsexual drag queen, STILL, it means, these so-called STRAIGHT men, they sort of like, have feelings twrds another male – well, although technically they’ve done sex-change operation and what not, still, hujung pangkalnya, asal kejadiannya, TETAP lelaki! So, these men will fall under the category of BISEXUAL guys, kan? Well – THAT’S NOT THE POINT OF THIS ENTRY ACTUALLY… LOL!

Menyingkap tentang soal CINTA di antara seorang lelaki (straight ke bisexual ke, whatever lah kan) dengan the ahli kumpulan minority dunia nih (gayboys, sissy, jambu, mak nyah ts or tg) - sejauh manakah mampu mereka bertahan dalam Cinta? Like, is there such thing as real true love between a man and another man dressed up like a girl? Or to some, yang dah went for full-conversion tu, will it last forever? ‘To love and to understand, through thick and thin, through sick and pain, till death do us part?’

Before we go on any further, since I’ve mentioned the word REAL, let’s discuss about this. Ade pernah sekali dua dipersoalkan tentang kewibawaan cinta insan2 'special' nih; most of the times this question would come from the guys, I wouldn’t wanna say that they’re vulnerable, but I guess they’re just being curious and takin’ safety measures…

"Cinta mereka (in this context, it refers to gays, drag queens and what not i.e. me) – are they for REAL? Or are they just a bunch of losers with FAKE love? Namun, pernah ke u ols tanye - these minorities, these, drags, gays and what not, diaorang bukan manusia ke? U ols - these drags and what not - they are human too. Ade hati, perasaan dan keinginan nak bercinta, even with same gender. So again, Cinta tak kenal jenis manusia. Cuma 'halal' dan 'haram' tu tak dapat nak dinafikan lah kan (NOTE - so jgn la lepas2 nih ade org nak gunakan this entry nak hentam we drag queens pulak. Remember, I reserve every right nak delete pathetic comments - warning awai2, pi main jauh2 bagi those yang tak der keje, yang tahu nak mengummmmmmmmmmmpat jer. Ehehehe)

Bertahankah cinta men with drags? - Soalan. Cinta STRAIGHT between pompuan dengan lelaki, ade tak yang TAK BERTAHAN? Ade tak yang 'hujan di tengah jalan'? Ade kan? Dan pernah tak kite dengar, gay couples lived until their old days - Straight/bisex men yang fedup dengan women, terus bercinta forever dgn gayboy/jambu or maknyah as for that matter, and lasted forever? Pernah kan? So HERE WE ARE with the statement; anything is possible.

So moral of this entry, up to here, is this... jgn kita pandang serong tentang CINTA biarpun it involves a man with a drag, or a pengkid with another girl, or between two gayboys, or what not - even now we hear drag queens pun leh couple sesama mereka. Soalanya disini, CINTA - LOVE. It's so sacred, its so pure. No boundries nak cinta ngan sapa2 tapi akibat alamat semua, sendirian berhad la kan. Love is a very sacred thing and be it straight or not, an ever lasting commitment is very important.

Coming back to our issue here, I would like to bring u ols punye attentions to these two experiences that I went through…

“Lea dearie, I’m willing to accept you as you are, so would u please open the door for me…”

“No no no! I’m not in drag la Abang!! And for goodness the first time I met you two days ago, I was in 10 inches of full make up! Now? Ado? Berbauk segala mauk, lagi u nak nengok!? Dah la you first2 pun saw my pics on the net pun, I was in drag – you picked me up 2 days ago for our first date, also me in drag! Mana ade you pernah tgk me out of drag? No no… I belum ready. I cannot take any chances lah! Give me 15 minutes and I bukak pintu nih, ok?”

“You never know until you try. Now open the door, let me see who is behind it? I already know Lea – I just wanna know her other half. Trust me. Sooner or later I have to see you out of drag jugak, betul tak? Come on Lea… open up the door utk Abang, please?”

“Oh very well!”

“There… that’s not too bad. You still have your cute smile, and those eyes – minus the long hair and the thick make up though… LOL!”

Ini antara a few reasons why I liked R, a straight guy I knew from the net. He saw my pics on Nyahwebnet punye official website back in 2003, January kot. Then we started emailing and stuffs, and we got to know each other, and then we went out and what not. Baik orangnya. Very low profile, always with concept “Fuck la people nak cakap ape me walking holding hands with a drag queen, so what?” Haaa… curlast tak concept monsep dia? Ehehehe. He liked me EVEN when I WAS NOT IN DRAG, which kadang2, most of the time, SUSAH we wanna find that quality in a straight guy. True, apa lah sangat pegang tangan mek tatkala me not in drag, very true. TAPI, kalau sudah pandai kissing me even when I’m not in drag, HOW!? Haaa… sesuatu kan? Remember anything’s possible? :) He's now married with one kid. Still in contact with him, still the same ol' Abang R of Keramat that I used to know... baik, sampai bile2 dia baik.

In another case…

“I kalau boleh, every time we meet up, I nak jumpa Lea je, boleh?”

“So meaning, you tannak jumpa my other half la?”

“Boleh jumpe – no hal. Tapi your other half will not get the same treatment as Lea gets la kan, if you know what I mean”

“So meaning to say, every time you nak jumpa I, I have to be in drag?”

“Yeap- coz I’m straight, so, it won’t look that awkward, when me goin’ out with Lea, as compared to if I go out holding hands with your other half, the male form…”

“So do you love me?”

“Of course I do…”

TENNNETTTZZ!! Wrong! H loved LEA, and not the real me, behind those thick showgirl make up. But I guess I can’t blame him. True, he’s straight, so I guess he expects his love-of-his-life to be, like a girl, most of the time. But in this case - it didn't last long. Why? Sbb when you deal with ppl that won't accept the truth or the real thing, sooner or later, boomm! Meletop jugak. I mean, H didn't wanna see my other half, but knowing me, I was not always as LEA. I was my other half most of the time. So - siape tahan, kan? Mula2 like ok la. Tapi lama2? How? He's happy now I guess dealing back with his straight life. Wish him all the best.

So you see peeps – anything and everything is possible, EVEN when it comes to straight men. We hear that when it comes to sex – the drags gets to be the receiver, and the guys, well, lets just say, they henjut here and there la kan. But, possible dan pernah berlaku (I’m talking in general so don’t point back on me yer!) drags gets to be the TOP and the guys, lets just say, curiosity diaorang yang meluak2 led them to be, the bottom? Ehehehehe… how pelik is that? Pelik but pernah berlaku! Ehehehe...

^{Haiyoh! Just another gambar hiasan lah u pls, dinch perlu la tanye siape shubern sebels mak itiew. Tak der kena mengena sesiape pon, atau dengan yang hidup atau yang dah mati, atau melibatkan apa apa kes or sesiape, ok! Ehehehe}

Dearest all,



I am truly, really, touched, happy, excited - to those who have voted for my page, THANK YOU SO MUCH! Keep on voting and I will try my level best to maintain whatever I can and improve on the things I should, ya? :) I have once reached Rank 6 or 7 - but I never thought I would be rank-5 (top 5, ehehehe)!!! If it wasn't for you guys, I wouldn't have made it! Thank you so much! Gawd I'm so happy! Ehehehehe...