Monday, April 11, 2005
Precautions & Suggestions For Treatment/ Cure of HIV/ AIDS
G.P. Institute (Hospital)
PRECAUTIONS & SUGGESTIONS FOR TREATMENT / CURE OF HIV / AIDS
In Ayurveda a unique clinical entity was described about 3,000 years back during Samhita period which is identical in the etiological, clinical features and prognosis of dreaded disease HIV/AIDS.
Sushruta Charya used the term "VYAVAYA SOSHA" while narrating the evil effects (Symptoms) of perverted Sex indulgence. The same term is also used while recommending the line of treatment. It is interesting to note 'SOSHA' (name of the disease syndrome) as one of the communicable disease i.e. spreading from one to another person (Samkramita diseases described in Ayurvedic classics). In this endeavor G.P.INSTITUTE (HOSPITAL) OF ALTERNATE THERAPIES & RESEARCH CENTRE has brought forward 4 medicines for treatment/cure of HIV/AIDS.
Before we speak about Ayurvedic medicine it would be better if we make clear one illusion in the minds of the people that for Ayurvedic medicines there will be diet restrictions. This feeling should be removed from the common man's mind, because depending upon the disease there will be certain diet restrictions, when speaking about HIV, as the mucous membranes are spoiled. These patients suffer with overheat in their body. Hence they should not take diet or any activities or work which causes heat to the body. If they do so, Mucous Membranes get spoiled and they cannot be repaired immediately. So children for one month, adults for two months, should eat food that does not contain salt, chilly, pickles, non-vegetarian etc. During the treatment period the patient should not use salt, chilly, oil, etc.
One need not think that if one takes the above said diet one will not gain strength may result in weight loss. If the patient uses our medicine then problems like weight loss or loss of strength etc do not arise. One should realise as to whether he is taking food for health or for taste purpose. Day-by-day as all organs in the body get immunity, there will be a great change and one will feel as though some magic has occurred in the body.
Even if one takes the case of B. P. patients, though they use modern medicine, they have to reduce salt so in the same manner one is using Ayurvedic Medicine has to follow diet restrictions. Similarly if one takes the case of Diabetic patient and if he uses modern medicine, then he should reduce intake of sweets. Hence any kind of medicine a patient uses he should not take the diet which is restricted in his case.
In the beginning - first two months of treatment patient should take rice with Buffalo butter milk at lunch and dinner ( oil, chilly, salt, etc are not allowed). At breakfast one should take idly and milk with sugar. In the afternoon he can take any fruits. After using medicines for two months, HIV patient can take one-third rice with salt, chilly, oil in reduced ratio with cooked vegetables. Rest of the two third foods should be taken with ½ liter buffalo buttermilk. Egg, fish, Meat, without Masala or Chillies should be taken in lesser quantity. Deep fry, pickles are restricted. One should not take them. One can have vegetables and fruits. The more one reduces salt, chilly, oil, etc till he get negative. It is for better health. Daily one should take one-liter Buffalo milk, butter milk, fruits till he gets negative one should follow the diet restrictions with good behavior. Avoid sex completely during treatment and later once in a month until negative occurs. Patient must note that if he does not follow the restrictions, it will take more time to get negative or sometimes may not be possible to get Negative.
Q.1. Is there complete cure for AIDS? How far is it curable? In how many days does the patient get satisfaction?
Yes, there is complete cure for AIDS. AIDS patients usually get infected with T.B., Cancer, etc. i.e. dreaded diseases. If the patient is not infected during or after treatment with these diseases then there will be 99 percent to 100 percent cure for HIV patients, provided the patient takes all the necessary precautions given at our Institute. There is no need to use medicines till HIV comes to negative. Patient needs to use medicines only for a period of four months.
Within a period of 15 to 30 days, 40% symptoms subside and unbelievable results can be seen. After completion of duration of treatment for four months, day by day the medicine rebuilds all organs in the body and helps in development of physiological activity of the cells. Thereby securing immunity and also reducing the percentage of virus compared to the earlier records. Finally the patient attains a healthy body.
Q.2.Is there any difference between 1st Stage and 2nd Stage? In which stage is it curable? If so, is it for all patients?
There is no difference whether a patient is in first stage or second stage, there is cure for every patient. It depends on the condition of the patient. For the treatment and cure of this disease a period of 4, 5 months is required. The medicine gradually reduces the symptoms and all organs of the body gradually get back to normalcy.
In the case of patients who suffer from T. B. or any dreaded disease along-with HIV, the medicine acts normally but the result is not seen so well. If the patient is not having any dreaded diseases like T. B. or cancer 99% to 100% cure for HIV/ AIDS can be assured. But cure is possible for 70% - 80% of the patients suffering with T. B. or cancer with advanced stage or condition. We are having some treatment with some other medicines for cancer. But in advanced stage or condition some variations are present.
As we are not having any medicine for cure of T. B. But it is available only in Allopathy. Our treatment for HIV is only 4 months. But if the patient is having T. B., that patient continues to suffer with it (T. B.) even after completion of our treatment for HIV / AIDS. After treatment of course of 4 months of HIV, day-by-day the patient's immunity raises and almost all organs come to normal but due to this T.B. or any dreaded diseases, it is not possible to get normalcy as the organisms still remain in some organs.
One should note that these patients are dying early as immunity is decreased due to some organisms present in these patients. Here the patient's life span is getting reduced due to non-controlling of T.B. or other dreaded disease but not due to HIV. If the patient does not follow all our precautions and uses our medicine even for 1 - 2 year's result will be reduced.
It is our practical experience that some Non-HIV persons who seem to be healthy also die due to obstruction of veins, bowels, heart failures etc within minutes to hours. Likewise sometimes in rare cases HIV/AIDS patients also may die, in the same manner but not due to improper action of our medicine.
Q.3. With the use of your medicines, is it possible that HIV positive (+Ve) comes to negative (-Ve) for a patient?
We confirm that it is possible to get HIV positive (+ve) to negative (-ve). It totally depends upon the behavior of the person and also immunity present in the body. After starting of treatment, day by day HIV virus begins to be destroyed. If the patient undergoes Viral Load Test one can know the same. The prominent role is played by CD4 count, which starts increasing. This can also be confirmed through CD4 absolute count. One can find within 15 days to 1 month that the patient becomes active and healthy when compared to before usage of medicine In this manner patients who use medicines regularly following all the precautions will be cured of the dreaded diseases and also immunity increases. Thus within 1 - 3 years patients will be definitely cured of the disease and it comes to negative. That means in 1ml of blood if there are 100s of virus it will take 1 year to cure, and if there are 1000s of virus it will take 2 years and similarly if there are lacks it will take 3 years to cure i.e. to get NEGATIVE. For Adults duration of treatment is 4 months and for children it will take 1 - 2 months. Thus depending on the age and severity of the disease.
Q.4. Government at present is announcing that in the world there is no cure in any system of medicine for AIDS. What do you say? Is it true that AIDS infected person will surely die? What are the reasons that Government / Scholars announcing in that manner?
In earlier days there was no medicine for T. B., Leprosy, etc isn't it? Do you think there is no cure even now? Due to the above diseases many people faced death, but now they are not treated as dreaded diseases. In the same manner, in this nature there is a way for every problem, i.e. for every disease, there is a medicine, we have to just find it out.
Every disease usually effects one or two organs in the body but HIV effects all organs like Heart, Lungs, Lever, Kidney, Brain, Digestive System etc even the eyes.
At present in the world for treatment of one organ like Kidney, if it is not functioning properly and it is not cured even with the usage of costly medicines, gradually it will be completely spoiled within 2 to 4 years. Why is this happening? It is due to non-availability of medicines, which act properly.
As illustrated above if one organ is spoiled there is no medicine for it. Then imagine the condition of the AIDS infected patient. In the case of HIV / AIDS patients also, the function of the organs get disturbed and thereby immunity decreases, which results in death. That is why they are of the view that it is not possible for all organs to come to normal stage.
Hence there is a feeling among people that there is no medicine for AIDS.
Q.5. Can you prove it practically, scientifically? Till now how many patients have been cured?
We have complete proof (recorded evidence) with us. Any person or organization can come and see our records. It is not possible for us to give addresses and other details of the patient as AIDS is a dreaded disease and also it is against Law to do so. Hence you can verify the reports only. Till now we have nearly completed treatment for 500 patients. About 100 more patients have taken medicine for 2 months. If the Government organizations want to verify they can verify the list and confirm. Later on they need not spend lacks of rupees for research. They can divert the money for the use of poor patients. If we export these medicines to foreign countries our Government can earn lot of foreign exchange. In that manner not only our state can become golden A.P. but India as a whole can become golden India. Farmers can grow the herbs cited by us.
Q.6. Usually how can you confirm whether a patient is suffering from HIV? Are there any special symptoms? Are there any tests through which a patient can be confirmed of having HIV?
(a) In the beginning, body heat/malaise is observed, which disappears only after death (if the patient does not use our medicine). With the usage of our medicine within 24 to 48 hours this symptom of feverishness (malaise) completely subsides. With the usage of Allopathic/any other, Ayurvedic medicine patient gets satisfaction/feels better, sometimes CD4 raises as well as viral count increases day-by-day. But here this medicine does not destroy the causative factor of HIV. Therefore his life span depends upon the immunity in his body.
(b) Then Gastro Intestinal Problems (GIT Disorders) start i.e. indigestion, loss of appetite, vomitings or motions etc. Gradually loss of weight is also seen, skin disorders, enlargement of glands, Body Pains etc. 25 to 30 symptoms. All these symptoms subside with our medicine completely within 2-3 months.
(c) In some advanced cases or Patients there will be loss of weight i.e. 10 - 20 Kgs. In some patients there will be anemia and as a result there will be OEDEMA due to which the body weight remains as it is or in some cases there will be increase in weight i.e. (5 - 10 Kgs.) This gain of weight is not real. There will be commendable progress by using our medicines.
In this way there will be three groups of symptoms (as explained above a, b and c), then we can say that the patient may suffering from HIV / AIDS. Not only these symptoms but there are 100 symptoms as per I.C.M.R. guidelines. These differ from patient to patient depending upon his immunity and other reasons.
A patient can be confirmed whether he is infected with HIV/AIDS - through ELISA, WESTERN BLOT, HIV RNA PCR Quantitative Test (Viral Load Test) and CD4 absolute count.
Through Elisa Test one can know whether HIV is present or not but not how much virus is present is not known. If the patient has 10% or 90% of virus left in his body, the result would be shown positive. In other words what percentage of virus is present in the patient's body will not be known.
In the case of Western Blot Test the patient can know how many bands are present before and after treatment and how many bands are reduced. So this test is useful than Elisa test.
If the patient undergoes Viral Load Test, he can know how much percentage of virus is present in every 1ml of blood. Hence he can know clearly in how many months / years, he can get negative. That means in 1ml of blood if there are 100s of virus it will take 1 year to cure, and if there are 1000s of virus it will take 2 years and similarly if there are lacks it will take 3 years to cure i.e. to get NEGATIVE.
CD means cluster of differentiation, Formally called T1,T3 etc., they have been renamed CD1,CD3 etc. Wide ranges of cells participate in specific and non-specific immunity such as macroface and T-cells fulfil several different functions. CD4 60% of circulating T-cells, helpers induce T-cells subset. CD8 approximately 35% of circulating peripheral human T-cells suppressor/Cytotaxic T-cells subject. CD4 and other surface markers on lymphocytes are valuable in clinical diagnosis HIV (Immune deficiency syndrome) and in the classification of lymphoma as well as in research.During and after completion of our treatment all most all patient's' absolute CD4 count Increased / became normal.
If he is an unmarried person then he can get married and have children.
NOTE:
It is our practical experience with recorded evidence that HIV / AIDS patients are under-going excess of sexual intercourse after completion of treatment which results in decrease of CD4 count and again raising viral load in the body. Hence it is advisable after completion of 4 months course follow monthly once with the usage of condoms until negative occurs.
Dr. P. S. V. SATYANARAYANA,
(Director & Chief Physician)
Facts were taken for the benefit of all, from G.P. Institute (Hospital) and this link was provided from a dear friend of mine, Zairil; thank you.
An Interview With A Great Leader
Dearest all,
Once I was in a pageant, and during the question and answer session, I remembered being questioned something like this...
"If you could meet one of the world's best leader, who would it be, and what would you like to talk to him about, and why?"
"Thank you for the question. If I have the chance to meet one of the world's best leader, it would definitely be Nelson Mandela. I would like to sit down and be able to talk to him, about, how he managed to prove and demonstrate to the world, that its not about this *rubbing my hands, tend to show about colour of my skin*, it's not about colours, it's not about what race or nationality you are. It's about what you have in your heart and what you have in your mind. He showed that if we are determined no matter what happens, we could make our dreams come true. And I just love to talk to him about that... "
Sadly, I got second (1st runner-up) to the title, although I thought that answer was brilliant compared to the winner, but anyways, that's not the whole point. This entry is not about me and my pageants again. It's about Nelson Mandela.
I fount it rather interesting to read about RDAsia's interview with this great black-leader, of all times. The heading was, "Nelson Mandela - A freedom fighter's life lessons" on the front cover page. And I thought to myself, this could be really interesting, no not as my entry, but for me to read. And so I read it, and true enough I say, it was really an interesting read. So lepas tu baru I decided to do the copy-paste work, so that I could share it with all of you. Once in a blue moon, copy paste entries are allowed lah I guess, but only the good ones and ones that worth di'copy-paste' ler, kan?... LOL!
It is a sign of the closeness that South Africans feel toward Nelson Mandela that so many call him Madiba, his clan name and an affectionate nickname. For in South Africa Madiba is still seen as the warm and wise father of a transformed nation as well as a truly global statesman.
He was born in 1918, son of a member of the royal house of the Thembu tribe. The schools Mandela attended were modeled on the British system; he later said he was taught to be a “black Englishman”. As a black South African, however, his freedoms were strictly limited. The young lawyer joined the African National Congress, dedicated to ending, via peaceful means, the apartheid system of racially based division and discrimination. But faced with the regime's increasingly brutal repression, Mandela was charged with organizing an armed wing of the ANC. After months of living and working underground, he was arrested in 1962. Tried for treason two years later, he was sentenced to life in prison without possibility of parole.
Confined at first to the maximum security prison of Robben Island off Cape Town, Mandela could easily have given in to despair. Yet he refused to let his spirit be broken.
“Free Mandela” became a rallying cry throughout the world, and in 1990 he walked out of prison after 27 years. Soon, he was representing the ANC in negotiations with the government that led to the first elections open to all South Africans; these in turn led to Mandela's election as South African president in 1994. Mandela's ability to transcend the bitterness of his country's racial divide helped the fledging South African democracy heal the wounds of that division. Now South Africans of all colors take pride in their country's peaceful transition from white minority rule to multi-racial democracy - and give Nelson Mandela credit for leading that transition.
Leaving office after a single five-year term, Mandela, now age 86, has maintained a punishing schedule that would exhaust a man half his age. He shares both his joys and his sorrows. In January, for instance, he revealed that his son Makgatho had died from AIDS, though few knew that he was even ill.
Reader's Digest sat down with the man called Madiba in the office of the Mandela/Rhodes foundation in Cape Town.
RD When you finally achieved political freedom after so many years of persecution and imprisonment, people would have understood if you became a leader with vengeance in your heart. Yet you chose the path of reconciliation. Are you at all surprised at how powerful a force it has been?
NM Well, people respond in accordance to how you relate to them. If you approach them on the basis of violence, that's how they'll react. But if you say we want peace, we want stability, we can then do a lot of things which will contribute towards the progress of our society.
RD As president, sometimes you referred to characters in Reader's Digest stories, particularly those who, like yourself, have triumphed in the face of adversity. On Robben Island, you used to read the magazine?
NM Yes, that's true. It has very interesting stories! One of them was about a young man in Canada who had cancer of the right leg and then they advised to amputate it. They did but he did not want to sit down in a corner and weep. He was on the Atlantic, he decided to walk with one leg to the Pacific.
So in this way Digest stories encourage people. Even if you have a terminal disease, you don't have to sit down and mope. Enjoy life and challenge the illness that you have. And that goes a long way in encouraging many people with similar problems.
RD You were raised in the Methodist Church as a young man.
NM Yes.
RD Has that religion, or religion in general, played an important role in your life? RD Do you think organised religion has played a positive or negative role in world history? RD You have described HIV/AIDS as the greatest public health crisis of all time and you seem to have made a personal crusade out of AIDS because you believe that more needs to be done about it. Is that fair? RD So a role that leaders like yourself and others should be playing is to help get rid of the ignorance which leads to this stigma. RD Beyond AIDS, what is the single greatest problem facing the world right now? RD Over the years you've devoted a lot of time to children. What do you think are the most important lessons that parents should keep in mind when raising children? RD What have you learned from children? RD You criticized the US and UK governments for taking action in Iraq without the approval of the United Nations. In recent months people around the world have waited for the United Nations to take meaningful action against ethnic cleansing in the Dafur province of Sudan yet the UN has been unwilling or unable to do so. Doesn't this show the weakness of the UN? RD You say that unilateral action that moves beyond UN mandates on countries like Iraq is wrong. But now that the presence of foreign forces is a fact of life, what is the best way forward to resolve problems there on the ground? RD So you would like to see a stronger United Nations? RD You became leader of the military wing of the African National Congress after you and other ANC leaders decided that non-violent struggle alone would not end oppression in South Africa. Are there places in the world today where armed struggles are justified? RD Where would you draw the line between terrorism and legitimate freedom fighting? RD You served as President of South Africa for only one term of office. And you have famously observed “some leaders don't know when to leave”. Robert Mugabe has ruled Zimbabwe for 25 years, with increasing repression and decreasing freedom for Zimbabweans. Is it time for him to leave? RD Are there any international figures who you haven't met but who you would like to? RD So it's the message, not the particular notoriety of who's saying it, that makes the difference? RD When you were in prison all those long years on Robben Island and elsewhere, was there something that came back to you, something you had either in your mind, a message or passage from a book, a song, something that helped sustain you and keep up your spirits? RD What would you say is your greatest strength and your greatest weakness? RD Some observers feel you would have made a good professional boxer if there was not a liberation struggle to be fought. What other jobs do you think you might have enjoyed? RD How would you like to be remembered in history?
NM It is important to not be hostile to what a greater part of society has embraced, whether as Christians, Hindus or Muslims. It is important to respect that because whether you believe or not in the existence of a superior being, humanity does believe in that. For you to be against that you completely isolate yourself and many people will not regard you as somebody who can lead society. The relations between a man and his or her god is a personal matter; you can't go out and challenge the belief of people in a superior being.
NM Broadly speaking, religion has played a good role. The only difference is the competition now between the various religious groups. That I would discourage. But the widely held belief that there is a superior being who supervises our affairs is good for humanity.
NM Yes. One of the things we have to deal with is that of stigma, of avoiding people altogether who suffer from AIDS. In contrast, remember that Princess Diana went to hospital with AIDS sufferers, sat down on their beds, shook hands with them and smashed that idea that you can't be in the same room as a person suffering from AIDS. She did very well.
In 2000 I went to Limpopo province [in the north of South Africa] for the opening of a rural school. I was conversing with the locals and they said to me that in a home nearby both parents were dead, leaving children, the eldest of whom is eight. I said, “Can we see them?” Oh, they were happy about that and as we were going there they were singing some songs about me. Then I went inside. I stayed for about 25 minutes. When I came out, the same crowd that had been singing about me, ran away from me. At first I didn't recognise that they were moving away. I quickened my pace and they also quickened theirs to get away from me. When I realised that they were running away from me, I just went back to my car.
NM Absolutely. There was a lady in the Ciskei region [of the Eastern Cape province in South Africa] who was suffering from HIV. She was courageous: she came to a meeting I attended and admitted that she suffered from HIV. I embraced her and I told the crowd: “Don't isolate people who are suffering from terminal diseases, because that alone kills people far more than the disease itself.” When somebody discovers that they are no longer regarded as a human being, he or she loses the will to fight, whereas if they are supported, especially by their friends and people they rely upon, they fight back.
I know a number of people who are suffering from AIDS but because we visit them and talk with them, this has given them a lot of courage. We tell them, “Don't isolate yourself, you don't have to hide that you are suffering from HIV.” And I tell them about my own example when I had tuberculosis in jail. When I was told this by the hospital, I went and told my friend Walter Sisulu [fellow ANC leader and political prisoner on Robben Island]. Walter called me aside and said, “Madiba, you must not tell us about this - it's personal.” I said, “What is personal? The whole of the hospital knows about it!” Years later when I had cancer of the prostate I called a press conference and I made light about it. People like that type of thing -- not to be too serious when discussing this question.
NM The question of poverty and lack of education, those two combined. It's important for us to ensure that education reaches everybody.
NM Without education your children can never really meet the challenges they will face. So it's very important to give children education and explain that they should play a role for their country. I often do that for my own children and grandchildren but I notice that my grandchildren know more now than I do!
NM Children bring you down to mother earth instead of floating high; that's one advantage of associating with them. And children can be very frank; they correct some mistakes that you have made in the past, they are able to remind you of the mistakes you made.
NM There is no institution in the world which has no weakness. What we have to do is to try and make sure that those institutions attain the aims for which they were formed. We have to fight inside those organizations. When you have an organisation representing the entire world it's not correct to leave it and act unilaterally.
NM My condemnation of actions of certain countries in Iraq is based on my deep commitment to multilateralism, in this case the UN. So I am not saying I was opposed to action against Saddam Hussein per se but I have great concern about was happened in Iraq as a result of the US presence. I have lost count of the number of people who have died since the end of the war. As to the way forward, this above all else must strengthen the principle of multilateralism and the role of the UN.
NM I don't know if I would say the UN is not strong enough but there are cases where you expect them to take action where they do not.
NM We had to create a military wing of the ANC because of the obduracy of the apartheid government who were not prepared to have any discussions with us. They were not prepared to accommodate our feelings and so we had to adopt methods to force them to do so and we succeeded. So a decision that you take depends on the actual circumstances facing you.
NM I am committed to the principle - and have confidence in the capacity of human beings - of finding rational solutions to situations of conflict.
NM It is not good for any democracy when its leader remains in power so long. However, this is something for the people of the country in question to decide.
NM There are so many men and women who hold no distinctive positions but whose contribution towards the development of society has been enormous. Some of them are not known even in their own countries, but when you come across them you are very impressed. Those are heroes or heroines we must never forget. Because of their service to society, you can't really help but admire them.
NM Yes, that's true. It's the contribution which a person, irrespective of his or her background, has made towards the development of society.
NM There was a poem by an English poet, W.E. Henley, called “Invictus.” The last lines go:
It matters not how straight the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
NM Well, I have a lot of weaknesses. I don't think I've got any strengths.
NM I would have liked to have been an ordinary labourer digging trenches. Boxing is something I enjoyed very much too but it may have been difficult [as a career]. One of the fighters I greatly admired was Muhammad Ali. As a boxer he took all this punishment without fighting back -- taking it, taking it, taking it. During his fight with George Foreman [the “Rumble in the Jungle” in Zaire in 1974] he said after a number of rounds, “We've been doing all this fighting and I haven't even started yet!” You see, you can't just take it. You can only take so much before you fight back.
NM I do not want to be presented as some deity. I would like to be remembered as an ordinary human being with virtues and vices.
© Reader's Digest 2005
This interview-text-entry were taken from Reader's Digest Asia, @ http://rdasia.com
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Handphones - Brain tumours?
I found out about this interesting topic as I was reading this month's Reader's Digest just now, then, THAT'S IT! Terus, lets, share it to the world yang tidak membaca Readers Digest. Eehehe. Ok la jugak, dari dok citer hal mekkk aje? Kang ade orang cakap bohsan lah itiew la ini la, kan? Eheheeh. Anyways, seriously, memang this topic, memang, caught my eyes to read it and I'm sure you guys will find it interesting plus berguna juge utk masa depan, nusa dan bangsa. E eh? Eheheeh- tetambah lagi for those of u yang guna handphones!!!
The debate continues as to whether mobile phones cause brain tumours. (Susah kan? Dah ade kemudahan, dahhh leh cause brain tumours. Sedeh tau. Then kalau cam tu, dari awal2, buat pe buat hp? Ehehehe). And latest news, ade results of a Swedish study suggest that ten years of mobile use DOES raise the risk of acoustic neuroma (haiyoh! mek kena bukak kamus nihs - lets! Dan selepas berpenat lelah peluh meleleh2 mencari the meaning of acoustic neuroma *walhal the meaning dah sah sah ade dlm Readers Digest itiew... saje gimik* is a benign tumour which means a mild type or character that does not threaten health or life, of the auditory nerve). Paham dak? Mek paham jugak. Kalau u ols dinch faham, lets! Pura2 paham! Ehehee. The topic also suggested that should you feel worried already selepas reading the topic, try the followings:
- use a hands-free earpiece or headset, macam si TT dok ade 24/7 kat telinga dia itiew. I wonder dia pakai dak bende tu waktu tidur, hmmm...
- A shield that covers the whole phone can work, though some will impair the phone's effectiveness. Maksudnye casing hp ke? Hurmmm... nampak cekai lah pakai casing hp, kan?
- Absorbing buttons that attach to the outside of your phone can absort ratiation, but only by 20% or so. Meaning???
- Different phone models can vary in radiation output by up to 80% - look for a low "SAR" level. Whatever that means...
~Do Mobiles Fry Your Brains?~
The debate continues as to whether mobile phones cause brain tumours. (Susah kan? Dah ade kemudahan, dahhh leh cause brain tumours. Sedeh tau. Then kalau cam tu, dari awal2, buat pe buat hp? Ehehehe). And latest news, ade results of a Swedish study suggest that ten years of mobile use DOES raise the risk of acoustic neuroma (haiyoh! mek kena bukak kamus nihs - lets! Dan selepas berpenat lelah peluh meleleh2 mencari the meaning of acoustic neuroma *walhal the meaning dah sah sah ade dlm Readers Digest itiew... saje gimik* is a benign tumour which means a mild type or character that does not threaten health or life, of the auditory nerve). Paham dak? Mek paham jugak. Kalau u ols dinch faham, lets! Pura2 paham! Ehehee. The topic also suggested that should you feel worried already selepas reading the topic, try the followings:
- use a hands-free earpiece or headset, macam si TT dok ade 24/7 kat telinga dia itiew. I wonder dia pakai dak bende tu waktu tidur, hmmm...
- A shield that covers the whole phone can work, though some will impair the phone's effectiveness. Maksudnye casing hp ke? Hurmmm... nampak cekai lah pakai casing hp, kan?
- Absorbing buttons that attach to the outside of your phone can absort ratiation, but only by 20% or so. Meaning???
- Different phone models can vary in radiation output by up to 80% - look for a low "SAR" level. Whatever that means...
Sabtu malam Ahad - Jalan Jalan Cari Jantan
And so here I am - feeling MUCH better, thanks to some group of friends who came by last night and had the most wonderful time jalan jalan cari jantan. Ehehehe. Hosted by, me!... hehhe
Yer yer, Friday wasn't such a good day for me I guess - thanks to SOMEBODY - "nyeh, melawak2 pun ade batas, mek kenal ko also, tapi jgn take advantage sebab mek kenal u ols, u ols leh cakap sesuka hati aje tau". Perlu ke mek mention names? Dinch perlu lah ek. Sendiri mau tau statement siape itiew telah dikeluarkan itiew.
So anyways, about yesterday. Morning memang I was still down - afternoon also I was still down, not until later evening a bit around 5pm when Miss G decided to come to AS with MTT (Miss Trindad & Tobago) aka Miss Peru/Universe 2004 aka Miss Petaling Street - you might wanna ask who? Nanti itiew gi check kat itiew mek punye gallery photos of my chatters/guests. Don't know where? Haiyoh! Always tau nak kena buat link kat sini. Nah, click HERE and then select lah album mana u ols nak masuk - tapi kalau mau carik itiew MTT aka MP (No, not Miss Peru, Miss Puaka Pelesit), click kat album Chatters/Guests, ok?
So where was I? Oh yes, Miss G decided to come to AS from Gurun with MTT who just arrived from KL just to do her charity tour around AS and Gurun (AF sebok nak buat tour dengan Radio Era, MTT also seboks, kan? Very der nak mempromosikan BEST LEG AWARDnye itiew, yang baru saje dimenanginye baru2 ini di Miss Universe World 2005 - maaaaaaaaati lah kau ade hati nak rampas title mek, Best Legs 3 years in a row ok!) - Asal je nak cakap or story about yesterday, mesti ade divert kalau tersebut MTT, asal ek? Hrmmmmmm, benatang sangat!
Early yesterday just before Miss G and MTT arrived in AS at around 6.30pm (janjinya was supposed to be somewhere by 5pm, ado? Ituuuuuuuu lah dia, Miss Miss feelings always, janji 5pm, munculnye 6.30pm, kalau when it comes to janji dengan kengkawan. Cuba janji dengan jantan? Haiyoh - janji at 5pm datang at 1pm nih! Sanggup!) - so anyways, before I met the two kat Plaza Tol Utara AS (Since Miss G dinch tau jalan in AS WALAUPUN sudah berkali2 datang ke AS), I sent my car to the workshop for the skirting bumper depan my car tu to get fixed, yes, FINALLY. So apparently mek dinch ade kereta la for the time being except for my mom's Kelisa special edition itiew, very ketot. Where's the beemer? Abangkiew pegang u ols - kan sebok nak menjual itiew beemer? :) So lepas G sampai ngan MTT (yang muka bagaikan tepong gomak tikus terjun tepong! - YER, WALAUPUN disiang hari katanye) mek called CD yang currently waktu itiew ade kat kedai saloon mak ayam Nabilla Natasha Porntip and we sort of like discussed ape the next plannye ape la itu la ini lah. So lepas itiew mek lead G and MTT ke Taman Rimba, suruh diaorang lepak sitiew kejaps sementara tunggu lepas Maghrib and then they can pick me up. By 8pm, they came and tersenyum riang. Motif? KATANYE kat Taman Rimba itiew, sempat bercikcurina katanye dan telah mendapat gambar seorang abang tak berbaju, u ols!!! Sempat itiew bertukar2 phone number, bercinta katanye dengan Miss G! Kezi tau. Of course, MTT senasib dengan mek, dinch dap ap2. Hanya terliur jer.
Ini lah dia port pertama Miss G, MTT dan mek serta BS membenatangkan diri depan abang2 tgh giat cerdas bersenam work out! Eheheh
So waktu dalam kerete G - sementara tunggu CD to call us, we alls pusing2 lah satu AS. Sempat kami bertiga singgah kat MAKSAK Gym kat Stadium Darulaman itiew, saje pose2 getek sambil tunggu BadarSila (BS). Then, dah bosan kat sitiew, the four of us pun sambung pusing2 kat around AS sampai lah CD called us at around 8.40pm and asked us to meet them (CD and Nabilla) kat Menara AS. Lepas jumpe2 and what not, we decided to go for dinner, which apparently ended like Miss G sorang jer yang menkedaghah soghang2, yang lain, me, CD, Nabilla, BS, and MTT, ala ala pose2 manja minum2 jer. And lepas Gi habis, THAT'S IT! NO, siape cakap kiteorang gi melarch? Sial tau. Always suke menskepulasikan keadaan. Skepulasi? Spekulasi lah! Kami dinch la melarch itiew, NOT YET! Ehehehe - we went to Mak Ayam Nabilla's saloon, nak tgk itiew VCD Miss Universe World 2005 yang baru baru nih tu ler, yang CD dah recorded melalui viewcam itiew. Walaupun kualiti TV teramat lah sedeh - (colour coding sudah lari - pink nampak purple, orange nampak dark blue, lain sangat dah... except kalau BLACK tetap maintain colour black, kan G?) tapi kami tetap had a lot of fun watching it, gelak2 kukkikkukkik sampai habis at 11pm, G and the gang semue sent me balik umah. THE END?!?! NO! Of course not... there's more.
You see, I had to show my pretty face kat Mak Tok and my mom apparently yang masih belum tidur when I got back home last night (told them I went out for dinner with friends), sbb diaorang tannak mek balik lambat2. So tunjuk je la muke dah balik dah itiew. So mek pun played along la. Balik, salin baju, basuh muke - yer, sempat sembahyang Isya' kejaps pastu, at 12.30am ittiew, G and the gang sama sama kembalik ke rumah kiew utk mengambil kiew keluar kembalik!!! Ehehe - which, at that time, G already had her 1st 'supper'. Curlast kan itiew benatang! Sempat cikcurina semasa ketiadaan mek. Hmmmmm.
Inilah dia taman rekreasi disiang hari, dimalam hari taman Jura, yang merupakan port pertama Miss G membenatangkan dirinya tanpa mek! Sentap!!!
We lepak2 at Stadium from the time they picked me up sampai lah at 3.30am. Doin' what? Biase lah fefonenz u ols, buat apa lagi? Walaupun dalam keadaan Au Natural, tapi, masih tetap laku ok. No no, I wasn't talking about me, Miss Berbauk yang confirm dinch laku (MTT Shuttup ko benatang! Jgn nak gelakkan aku! Ehehehe) BS and me ala ala pose2 kat kereta sambil kiew isap rokok berbatang2 menunggu itiew MTT and MG yang kehulu kehilir ala ala seperti funtart yang baru saje dicili apikan. Tak gherti duduk diam diam! Kejap pose sini kejap pose sana, but it was hell- lot of fun, kan girls? Tambah dengan keriuhan Mak Ayam Nabilla dan jugak kawan seperjuangannye, Kak Gee (yang mirip saling tak tumpah perangai Leez), haiyoh - bertambah gamat Stadium Darulaman itiew, walaupun pada malam Sabtu (which is so like not normal for a Saturday night, in AS - to have a lot of these jejantanz, sbb Ahad kan working day?).
Siang hari auntie ini berjogging katanye. Dimalam hari itiew piula, ini lah tempat Miss G dan MTT berebutz jantanz utk bergelumang dosa dan noda dibelakang semak2 itiew, sementara BS dan mek memerhatikan sambil menunggu dengan penuh sobar sehengga 3.28am - taman nih yang bebetul depan Stadium Darulaman. BS! Lets! Malam Jumaat ini, yer? Ehehehe
Basic tema entry nih, ala ala MORAL OF THE STORY? - I had a lot of laughter, fun, maki hamun dan jugak kutuk keji mengeji between all of us, last night. Girls, G, MTT, BS, CD, Nabilla - guys, I really had fun last night! Really I did. Thanks...
"GAL, IM LEAVING NOW. TQ 4 UR HOSPITALITY. C U NEXT WEEK!" See you next week katanye!?!?!?! Msg nih mek terima via sms kat phone 016 mek, I think from MTT. Girl, you're welcome - and please do come again. Mek suke caras muke kau! Ekeke - luv u lots. Be good! NEXT WEEK KATANYE!?!?!? eheheheeh - maaaaaaaaati lah kau kan!
Before that, on the other hand, mek dapat sms ini pulak...
"SO MALAM TADI DINCH KENA KANTOI BLK LAMBAT? MEK KAT SP TGH BAWAK MTT ITIEW KE BUS STATION. ABANG TMN RIMBA ITIEW SUDAH PANGGIL MEK MAI AS IN DRAG! MEK NANGIS!!!!" Ehehe - yes, it was from Miss G - well figured. Ehehe - ontahlah G- drag aje lah. Nak mek make up kan ko!?!? *Sambil nak dial number MTT nak kasik tau plan kalau G nak mek siapkan dia, mek akan makeup caras sangkakkan dia, kan MTT? Ehehehee...*
Whatever it is - yesterday, specifically, semalam, was, infact, one of the best nights ever, I had, since I came back from KL last 4 months, or so... :) Thanks girls! We should do more, well, not too often though. Ehehhee...
Yer yer, Friday wasn't such a good day for me I guess - thanks to SOMEBODY - "nyeh, melawak2 pun ade batas, mek kenal ko also, tapi jgn take advantage sebab mek kenal u ols, u ols leh cakap sesuka hati aje tau". Perlu ke mek mention names? Dinch perlu lah ek. Sendiri mau tau statement siape itiew telah dikeluarkan itiew.
So anyways, about yesterday. Morning memang I was still down - afternoon also I was still down, not until later evening a bit around 5pm when Miss G decided to come to AS with MTT (Miss Trindad & Tobago) aka Miss Peru/Universe 2004 aka Miss Petaling Street - you might wanna ask who? Nanti itiew gi check kat itiew mek punye gallery photos of my chatters/guests. Don't know where? Haiyoh! Always tau nak kena buat link kat sini. Nah, click HERE and then select lah album mana u ols nak masuk - tapi kalau mau carik itiew MTT aka MP (No, not Miss Peru, Miss Puaka Pelesit), click kat album Chatters/Guests, ok?
So where was I? Oh yes, Miss G decided to come to AS from Gurun with MTT who just arrived from KL just to do her charity tour around AS and Gurun (AF sebok nak buat tour dengan Radio Era, MTT also seboks, kan? Very der nak mempromosikan BEST LEG AWARDnye itiew, yang baru saje dimenanginye baru2 ini di Miss Universe World 2005 - maaaaaaaaati lah kau ade hati nak rampas title mek, Best Legs 3 years in a row ok!) - Asal je nak cakap or story about yesterday, mesti ade divert kalau tersebut MTT, asal ek? Hrmmmmmm, benatang sangat!
Early yesterday just before Miss G and MTT arrived in AS at around 6.30pm (janjinya was supposed to be somewhere by 5pm, ado? Ituuuuuuuu lah dia, Miss Miss feelings always, janji 5pm, munculnye 6.30pm, kalau when it comes to janji dengan kengkawan. Cuba janji dengan jantan? Haiyoh - janji at 5pm datang at 1pm nih! Sanggup!) - so anyways, before I met the two kat Plaza Tol Utara AS (Since Miss G dinch tau jalan in AS WALAUPUN sudah berkali2 datang ke AS), I sent my car to the workshop for the skirting bumper depan my car tu to get fixed, yes, FINALLY. So apparently mek dinch ade kereta la for the time being except for my mom's Kelisa special edition itiew, very ketot. Where's the beemer? Abangkiew pegang u ols - kan sebok nak menjual itiew beemer? :) So lepas G sampai ngan MTT (yang muka bagaikan tepong gomak tikus terjun tepong! - YER, WALAUPUN disiang hari katanye) mek called CD yang currently waktu itiew ade kat kedai saloon mak ayam Nabilla Natasha Porntip and we sort of like discussed ape the next plannye ape la itu la ini lah. So lepas itiew mek lead G and MTT ke Taman Rimba, suruh diaorang lepak sitiew kejaps sementara tunggu lepas Maghrib and then they can pick me up. By 8pm, they came and tersenyum riang. Motif? KATANYE kat Taman Rimba itiew, sempat bercikcurina katanye dan telah mendapat gambar seorang abang tak berbaju, u ols!!! Sempat itiew bertukar2 phone number, bercinta katanye dengan Miss G! Kezi tau. Of course, MTT senasib dengan mek, dinch dap ap2. Hanya terliur jer.
So waktu dalam kerete G - sementara tunggu CD to call us, we alls pusing2 lah satu AS. Sempat kami bertiga singgah kat MAKSAK Gym kat Stadium Darulaman itiew, saje pose2 getek sambil tunggu BadarSila (BS). Then, dah bosan kat sitiew, the four of us pun sambung pusing2 kat around AS sampai lah CD called us at around 8.40pm and asked us to meet them (CD and Nabilla) kat Menara AS. Lepas jumpe2 and what not, we decided to go for dinner, which apparently ended like Miss G sorang jer yang menkedaghah soghang2, yang lain, me, CD, Nabilla, BS, and MTT, ala ala pose2 manja minum2 jer. And lepas Gi habis, THAT'S IT! NO, siape cakap kiteorang gi melarch? Sial tau. Always suke menskepulasikan keadaan. Skepulasi? Spekulasi lah! Kami dinch la melarch itiew, NOT YET! Ehehehe - we went to Mak Ayam Nabilla's saloon, nak tgk itiew VCD Miss Universe World 2005 yang baru baru nih tu ler, yang CD dah recorded melalui viewcam itiew. Walaupun kualiti TV teramat lah sedeh - (colour coding sudah lari - pink nampak purple, orange nampak dark blue, lain sangat dah... except kalau BLACK tetap maintain colour black, kan G?) tapi kami tetap had a lot of fun watching it, gelak2 kukkikkukkik sampai habis at 11pm, G and the gang semue sent me balik umah. THE END?!?! NO! Of course not... there's more.
You see, I had to show my pretty face kat Mak Tok and my mom apparently yang masih belum tidur when I got back home last night (told them I went out for dinner with friends), sbb diaorang tannak mek balik lambat2. So tunjuk je la muke dah balik dah itiew. So mek pun played along la. Balik, salin baju, basuh muke - yer, sempat sembahyang Isya' kejaps pastu, at 12.30am ittiew, G and the gang sama sama kembalik ke rumah kiew utk mengambil kiew keluar kembalik!!! Ehehe - which, at that time, G already had her 1st 'supper'. Curlast kan itiew benatang! Sempat cikcurina semasa ketiadaan mek. Hmmmmm.
We lepak2 at Stadium from the time they picked me up sampai lah at 3.30am. Doin' what? Biase lah fefonenz u ols, buat apa lagi? Walaupun dalam keadaan Au Natural, tapi, masih tetap laku ok. No no, I wasn't talking about me, Miss Berbauk yang confirm dinch laku (MTT Shuttup ko benatang! Jgn nak gelakkan aku! Ehehehe) BS and me ala ala pose2 kat kereta sambil kiew isap rokok berbatang2 menunggu itiew MTT and MG yang kehulu kehilir ala ala seperti funtart yang baru saje dicili apikan. Tak gherti duduk diam diam! Kejap pose sini kejap pose sana, but it was hell- lot of fun, kan girls? Tambah dengan keriuhan Mak Ayam Nabilla dan jugak kawan seperjuangannye, Kak Gee (yang mirip saling tak tumpah perangai Leez), haiyoh - bertambah gamat Stadium Darulaman itiew, walaupun pada malam Sabtu (which is so like not normal for a Saturday night, in AS - to have a lot of these jejantanz, sbb Ahad kan working day?).
Basic tema entry nih, ala ala MORAL OF THE STORY? - I had a lot of laughter, fun, maki hamun dan jugak kutuk keji mengeji between all of us, last night. Girls, G, MTT, BS, CD, Nabilla - guys, I really had fun last night! Really I did. Thanks...
"GAL, IM LEAVING NOW. TQ 4 UR HOSPITALITY. C U NEXT WEEK!" See you next week katanye!?!?!?! Msg nih mek terima via sms kat phone 016 mek, I think from MTT. Girl, you're welcome - and please do come again. Mek suke caras muke kau! Ekeke - luv u lots. Be good! NEXT WEEK KATANYE!?!?!? eheheheeh - maaaaaaaaati lah kau kan!
Before that, on the other hand, mek dapat sms ini pulak...
"SO MALAM TADI DINCH KENA KANTOI BLK LAMBAT? MEK KAT SP TGH BAWAK MTT ITIEW KE BUS STATION. ABANG TMN RIMBA ITIEW SUDAH PANGGIL MEK MAI AS IN DRAG! MEK NANGIS!!!!" Ehehe - yes, it was from Miss G - well figured. Ehehe - ontahlah G- drag aje lah. Nak mek make up kan ko!?!? *Sambil nak dial number MTT nak kasik tau plan kalau G nak mek siapkan dia, mek akan makeup caras sangkakkan dia, kan MTT? Ehehehee...*
Whatever it is - yesterday, specifically, semalam, was, infact, one of the best nights ever, I had, since I came back from KL last 4 months, or so... :) Thanks girls! We should do more, well, not too often though. Ehehhee...
Nizam Zakaria's "Kisah Dua Wanita" - book reading@ Darling Muse Art Gallery
U ols!!! The famous Nizam Zakaria (NZ) is doin' one of his book readings again, at Darling Muse Art Gallery. Mek also got the invitation. Ala ala mek punye invitations melalui tagboard to tagboard - dia also u ols! Cantik invitation card dia... hmmmm...
His tagboard invitation kat mek. Posted over at my tagboard - APRIL 9th, 11.01pm
Nizam Zakaria » u'olls visit my blog for more info, ya!
Nizam Zakaria » lealaurielle, I nak invite you to the reading of Kisah Dua Wanita on Saturday (16 Apr 2005). Cerita pasal adik2 ni. Bawak kenkawan lah ya, and please come in drag (kalau boleh). Thanks!
PS- MOTIF dan KAEDAHNYE nak suruh mek draggonrina ke itiew majlis? Saje nak suruh mek perch lobs lah itiew siang2 hari buta nak draggonrina. U ols (NZ), mek kan ratu bauk u ols. Very the siang2 the lahanatz itiew green green grass on my face can be seen even with 10inches of thick Krayolan and Miyami ok! Ehehehe - kidding love. Tapi, motif nak mek hadiri dalam drag? The book is about mek ke? EHEHEHEHE!
That's right peeps! Siape nak further info about hal book reading or about the book itself OR about NZ HIMSELF, ehehe (NZ, mek promosi ligat lagi bersunggoh2 utk miew nih! Jgn marah mek nah!? Eheheh) please do visit his page at http://nizamzakaria.blogspot.com or simply click HERE.
His tagboard invitation kat mek. Posted over at my tagboard - APRIL 9th, 11.01pm
Nizam Zakaria » u'olls visit my blog for more info, ya!
Nizam Zakaria » lealaurielle, I nak invite you to the reading of Kisah Dua Wanita on Saturday (16 Apr 2005). Cerita pasal adik2 ni. Bawak kenkawan lah ya, and please come in drag (kalau boleh). Thanks!
PS- MOTIF dan KAEDAHNYE nak suruh mek draggonrina ke itiew majlis? Saje nak suruh mek perch lobs lah itiew siang2 hari buta nak draggonrina. U ols (NZ), mek kan ratu bauk u ols. Very the siang2 the lahanatz itiew green green grass on my face can be seen even with 10inches of thick Krayolan and Miyami ok! Ehehehe - kidding love. Tapi, motif nak mek hadiri dalam drag? The book is about mek ke? EHEHEHEHE!
That's right peeps! Siape nak further info about hal book reading or about the book itself OR about NZ HIMSELF, ehehe (NZ, mek promosi ligat lagi bersunggoh2 utk miew nih! Jgn marah mek nah!? Eheheh) please do visit his page at http://nizamzakaria.blogspot.com or simply click HERE.
These pics will do the talkin' for me today...
Ada paham ka? For those of u ols yang membenci, menyampah, dan meluat dengan mek - please redirect yourself to another blogpage or website as I seriously benci, menyampah dan meluat also dengan orang2 macam itiew - tryin' to bring me down? Motif? Nyahhh kau dari sini - go go shuuhh! Hehehehe...
Bak kata Lindsay Lohan - RUMORS
I need a little space to breath,
Can you please respect my privacy,
Why cant you just let me do,
The things I wanna do ,
I just wanna be Me,
I dont understand why,
Would you wanna bring me down,
When I'm only having fun,
I'm gonna live my life,
But not the way that you want me to,
I'm tired of rumors started,
I'm sick of bein' followed,
I'm tired of people lyin',
Sayin' what they want about me,
Why cant they back up off me,
Why cant they let me live,
I'm gonna do it my way,
Take this for just what it is..."
Can you please respect my privacy,
Why cant you just let me do,
The things I wanna do ,
I just wanna be Me,
I dont understand why,
Would you wanna bring me down,
When I'm only having fun,
I'm gonna live my life,
But not the way that you want me to,
I'm tired of rumors started,
I'm sick of bein' followed,
I'm tired of people lyin',
Sayin' what they want about me,
Why cant they back up off me,
Why cant they let me live,
I'm gonna do it my way,
Take this for just what it is..."
Oh, but these people still decides to stay and then go on and on posting those pathetically damn sad and retarded msgs over my taggyboard - fear not. The "edit/clear" function, which is commonly used to edit or delete msgs over the tagboard - well, I can use that to delete all those sickening remarks over MY tagboard as well. Besides, it is only at my fingertip. But still - tgk lah these two pics I have for u ols yang tak der kerje itiew, yang masih dinch giveup2 mau menjatuhkan kiew... Hehehe
And finally... something from Britney Spears, MY PREROGATIVE
People can take everything away from you!
But they can never take away your truth.
But the question is?? Can you handle mine?
They say I'm crazy!
I really don't care; that's my prerogative!
They say I'm nasty!
But I don't give a damn; gettin' boys is how I live!
So messy questions:
Why am I so real?
But they don't understand me!
I really don't know the deal about my sister!
Tryin' hard to make it right!
No long ago, before I won this fight!
Everybody's talkin' all this stuff about me!
Why don't they just let me live? Tell me why
I don't need permission
Make my own decisions!
That's my prerogative!
That's my prerogative!
You can't tell me what to do?
But they can never take away your truth.
But the question is?? Can you handle mine?
They say I'm crazy!
I really don't care; that's my prerogative!
They say I'm nasty!
But I don't give a damn; gettin' boys is how I live!
So messy questions:
Why am I so real?
But they don't understand me!
I really don't know the deal about my sister!
Tryin' hard to make it right!
No long ago, before I won this fight!
Everybody's talkin' all this stuff about me!
Why don't they just let me live? Tell me why
I don't need permission
Make my own decisions!
That's my prerogative!
That's my prerogative!
You can't tell me what to do?
Don't get me wrong!
I'm not really souped!
Ego trips are not my thing!
All these strange relationships really get me down!
There's nothing wrong to spread my self around!
Why can't I live my life?
Without all of the things that people say?
I'm not really souped!
Ego trips are not my thing!
All these strange relationships really get me down!
There's nothing wrong to spread my self around!
Why can't I live my life?
Without all of the things that people say?
Kapish? - Understand dak? Simple kan - siape tak suke mek, tak suke my page - dah dah, beramsss! Ehehehe... Move away bitch! Make way for the true Queen - of bitches! Ehehehe
Saturday, April 09, 2005
How I feel - does anyone care?
Friday, April 08th, 2005 - at around 4pm.
Well I am feeling a tid bit frustrated today. I just have this bad feeling.. about somthing. I'm not exactly sure what it is. I mean so far today, I had fun. The tagboard seems great and greater today. I don't know, probably it is getting out of hand? Nah - maybe it is just me. I seriously don't know and am not too keen to find out.
There seems to already be too much "freinds-teasing" problems here at the tagboard- most of the time I'm cool and ok with it. Today I felt like, too much for me, is it? Is it really that 'pedas' or is it just me, feeling too 'shitty' about something else and blaming of this tagboard, blaming my friends? What I do know for a fact is that they are my friends and that they're just acting normal as they use to. So, it looks like it is me then, kan? But I still say "No" to that... I don't think so. So, what is it then? Why am I feeling so shitty about all these and why do I have this strong feeling its gonna get worse later?
To most people this wouldn't be much of a problem; the shitty feelings I mean - but for me it is a major problem. I just hate having to do with this feeling that am the only one thinking all these are problems and its making me and gonna make me feel shitty. To always be the one to feel down, shitty and crying - I think the drama queen in me is so true and it is so working out. BUT this time I think it is something else. But hell I guess I don't know what it is...
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Friday, April 08th, 2005 - at around 6pm.
TRUE enough something happened! I was chatting as usual with my group of close friends with some strangers over at my tagboard - when all of a sudden, boom. It hit me. It hit me right at my face. What? This did
"KAU SIBUK KENAPA LEA. KAU DAH EXPIRED UNTUK JADI RATU ATAU CROWNKAN RATU PAHAMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KERTUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!"
Wohoo - I knew I was feeling shitty all day a bit but this? It just hit me, slap me right on my face. I am now suke sibuk? I am now expired to be a queen or crowing one? I'm OLD? Ever experienced the fact that you're alright feeling shitty for not knowing why you're all gloomy and grumpy and feeling bad and sad over something you don't know? Imagine that and suddenly, boom! You got this msg over at your tagboard, and it was from a friend - claiming it was just a joke? Oh - how lame can he get when giving excuses? I know I know it was probably really was a joke or something. But since I was feeling a bit confused about feeling all this grumpy and shitty and what not - this was a real big slap on my face. Of course I couldn't blame this friend of mine becoz yeah, he didn't know I was feeling all these grumpy shitty and what not, correct? But at the same time, one cannot blame me for starting to keep quiet, and thinking about the joke that could actually somehow or rather be true, and started crying. You can't blame me for that, right? And so I decided to lay low and keep quiet - continued crying while my two phones were switched off. Since, well, Lea is just a drama queen and with this act? She has proven to the world that she's a world-class best drama queen, or should we say - World's Best Soap Opera Queen???
These were the things I FELT yesterday till later last night;
1. My friends will never take me seriously whenever I feel really down and crying my heart out - why? Well - I'm just another drama queen.
2. Teasing can be fun - and it can also break someone's heart - apparently, 'twas my heart they sliced into thousand little pieces
3. I was already feeling down - perlu ke make things worse?
4. Don't my friends realize that I DO have a heart? And a sensitive one, please take note?
5. Even the right words that seems to rhyme, can eventually be a wrong thing?
6. I felt like I couldn't show how sad I was - as no one would wanna believe how I felt being humiliated as part of their 'teasing' scheme?
7. I guess when it comes to the world of Drag Queens - true, teasing was and still is and will always be a part of life - but doesn't anyone know the word, limits?
8. I feel as though someone I really really like also tends to not understand me and agrees to the fact that am just another sicko wacko drama queen who only wants attention?
9. My day was from average, to slow, to the maximum of pure sadness and pathetically damned. What would be coming up next?
10. Everyone says "We know her, she'll be fine soon" - does anyone know and realize that, maybe, just maybe, I won't be fine, SOON?
Well - till 6pm, or so it seems around until and after that time - I felt all those things I mentioned above. And the fact that I avoided those people who were trying to call me, no - not making more drama out of it. I was trying to say "Please, I do not wish to talk to you just yet, and I do not want to make the impression that I am DESPERATELY wanting you to believe that I am really crying and this is not just a mere-act of a drama queen" - I mean, SOAP OPERA queen. Basic rule number 1 when you're down, universally, is that you would wanna be alone - and so was I...
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Saturday, April 09th, 2005
Im feeling a slightly better today. A little bit of the frustration is gone. I slept off early last night, as early as 9pm, after Isya'. I was pretty much tired after crying my heart out the whole evening, plus, I did go for swimming and that contributed to the fact that it got me all more and more tired. Couldn't be bothered to do anything, after Isya'. So I decided to really get some rest and sleep for today.
And this morning, after Subuh prayers, after I finished off the first Juz' *Yes, for your info, I 'khatam'ed my Quran on Tuesday night, during the family weekly Al-Quran-reading gathering thingie* of the holy Al-Quran, I felt a lot better. And afterwards, had breakfast, that really made things even better. What do you expect, FOOD? Of course it'll make me feel somewhat better. But I was not completely over and done with the things that happened yesterday - If I'm over and done with it, yes, I agree, I am just a mere soap-operan queen who maintain her sad character act for more that 12 hours. So as I'm feeling, still feeling shitty about all these, there you go - it is true, I was depressed over yesterday's whole teasing measing issue.
I never quite understood why people think that when they can assume stuffs, that makes them superior?. I mean I KNOW, YOU KNOW, we all bleed when cut, cough when sick, sleep when tired. So what makes you think you're better than me? Wanna know something - one point that makes you look INFERIOR compared to me is that when you THINK you KNOW how someone else thinks and feels, that's when you're wrong - you can't assume or think you know how someone else thinks or feel. Everyones been through problems and has their own ghetto story. So you can't assume you know things and that it will get better "I KNOW SHE'LL BE OK" - hell yeah I'll be fine but only when I SAY IT - so don't assume it. For all you know, I could be getting a nice tie, a branded one, so it'll be somewhat of a good quality that holds a good heavy thing without ripping it apart - and go and hang myself. Would you expect that? Would be able to say "I knew she's gonna do that" ? So, you might have known me well - but being human, can one predict how another human behaves just becoz "Oh I know her well"? Go tell that to your 'I-charge-RM500-an-hour' shrink, after realizing "I thought I knew her but how come she did something that I didn't have expected she would be doin'?"
Ok, well the way I started this entry was probably a bit too much, but as my page reads "STORIES OF MY LIFE - I WRITE YOU READ" - so, its all from the bottom of my broken heart. The situation happened to me throughly made my head and heart hurt.
It might be the cavity I think have been trying to reer it's ugly head. And I guess my eating cold ass fries, a philly steak and cheese sub, and rasberry tea doesn't help. But all of that has absolutely nothing to do with the price of tea in china.
DECLARATION:
The events taken place in this blog are all true. Although, sometimes names have been mentioned, some changed, some I might not even mention - to protect the innocent, guilty, and the wealthy.
I have totally no idea why I STILL feel like keeping quiet. Probably becoz although some of my depressions and frustrations are already out, there are some still left, intact, in my heart and my soul. I know I'm one of the luckiest person to be on earth for having great friends, great strangers who likes me, and above all, for having a blogpage of my own to write what I feel deep inside. Yet, I'm broken in a way. I have too many thoughts in mind, which make me feel like a f&$^#@g person. It was a ridiculous day, yesterday. The ridiculous me doing ridiculous things. Things that is no good and wasting my hell lot of time. BUT, I was just being the real me - the one whose heart got sliced up by a friends' mere tease.
Sometimes people just wish things dont turn up in certain way. I wished that too. We can't differentiate what's right and wrong... sometimes the point of views just go all the way down to the drain, at least mine did, yesterday - when it comes to me and my thoughts and the way I feel or felt. I wish all this was just a dream. A nightmare I shall call it. I hope I don't remember it as well. I hope nothing had happened. I hope it was a wheel of fortune. I hope I can turn back time. I hope I can rewrite yesterday. I hope I never did this and that. I wish I could be smarter to communicate, smarter to talk, so that I won't get to stuck my freaking emo to them. I wish I'm a fool. At least I don't have to think that I am stupid enough to be fooled to a simple tease.
Things changed and changing and so am I - but for the good or for worse? Hell I don't even know the answer to most of my questions for now.
Friday, April 08, 2005
MARA Junior Science College Balik Pulau - what a memory!
January 2nd 1995, Monday - the day I first time jejakkan kaki ke Pondok Upeh’s MRSM Balik Pulau. Not that it was my first time ever sebab I’ve been to that school like banyak kali la jugak sbb I used to have my second brother yang studied situ also way back in 1988 and 1989. My cousin pun ade seorang jugak yang studied sitiew in 1992 and 1993. So kirenye, I’ve jejakkan kaki kat situ banyak kali lah jugak; but as a student, that was my first time.
Lepas PMR I got the offer to join in MRSM Balik Pulau, Penang. I applied for Taiping and Jasin as for my 1st and 2nd choice, respectively. And MRSM Balik Pulau was my 3rd choice. I guess, it was like destinied – kaum kerabat, ahli keluarga muargakiew semua kena gi MRSM Balik Pulau. Ehehe. So I was like the third wakil from my keluargamuarga yang gi MRSMBP.
So anyways, the first day kat MRSM Balik Pulau was like – hmmm, indescribable. The school yang pernah menjadi sekolah my abang and also my cousin, now, *then*, dah jadik my school also. Ramai sangat orang on the first day. Tak cukup ramai dengan students, parents, family, ade jugak yang nak hantar student, datang ala ala satu rombongan gittu. Hehehehe. Among those ramai2 students form 4 yang mendaftar masuk, ade jugak yang from my previous school, yang dapat MRSMBP also and ade jugak from my kampong, so ade lah kawan jugak, so I guess I wasn’t alone afterall. Seniors pun ade dah mek noticed seorang dua yang mek dah ala ala kenal rupe but dinch kenal personally.
I remembered clearly lepas amik ujian English kat dewan, utk determined which class you akan dimasukkan *late me found out me dalam class A eheh top class ok!*, mek went back to the asrama. Waktu tu my mom dengan my dad dah dok sebok2 clearkan my room. My stuffs jgn tanye la. Macam nak pindah rumah I say. Everything I rase nak bawak, perlu ke idak, mek hentam jer labu. Bawak jugak. So as me and my parents tgh sebok clearing my room, unloading my stuffs and what not, muncul lah seorang student, kecik molek orangnye, masuk lenggang longgok kangkong Mak Limah, ke bilik yang boleh muatkan dua orang student itiew.
Dia kenalkan diri dia as Aizul and dari sitiew, dialah roomiekiew, dia lah sahabat baikkiew, dia lah budak sekampungkiew, dia lah segala2nya dan yer, dia lah jugak antara adik2 (jambu2) yang vast kat MRSM waktu tu dengan mek! Ehehehe… kire, seangkatan lah. Mula mula just the two of us, then as time passed us by, nah ade lagik 3 yang seangkatan. Sorang from Terengganu, sorang from Selangor and sorang lagik from Penang, Bukit Mertajam to be exact. Ehehe – jadik lah us one group. I guess it was kindda like amazing jugak duduk MRSM nih sebab kat MRSM nih banyak students from many other states, from different backgrounds, and what not – semue under one roof, MRSM BALIK PULAU.
Berbalik kepada cerits mek di MRSM. Selepas seminggu lebih duduk asrama penuh, NAH! Mek dah teresak2 menangis kat public phone ok, crying my heart, or should I say, crying my lungs out kat my mom, memujuk merayu, sampai to one extend memaksa my mom to ask my dad to take me out from the school. Tak tahan sundel! I was like, urgh! I couldn’t stand the food kat dewan selera; almost one week tu, me only went to the schools cafeteria jer – sanggup bayar ok! Pastu, I couldn’t sleep well at night- panas ok no air cond! Then kena buli – imagine, just ONE bloody week at that bloody school and the seniors were like torchering me, us, juniors, especially yang lembut2 jambu2 nih, upside-down-inside-out! Kena buli ape? Haiyoh! Basuh baju seniors berbaldi2 lah, kena kiwi kasuts la, iron baju la, itu la ini la – mana mek tahan!!! Orientation 3 hari jer, the remaing 4 days of the first week tu, torcher ok!!! Tensi teramatz lah sangat.
Tapi lepas my mom told me my dad said “FINISH OFF WHAT YOU STARTED- you’re not coming back home until you finish your SPM next year”- and lepas mek kena brainwash dengan Aizul – I slowly but surely and steadily telah mengadaptkan diri dengan keadaan sekeliling yang ala ala very, so tak classy utk mek! I hated the toilet! I hated the fact that I had to get up every stinking morning at 5.30 stinking morning for Subuh, and I hated the fact that I had to do a lot of stuffs dalam the first month tu. Yer lah, mana lagi bab bab study subject2 baru. Mana lagi I have get myself used to mandi ramai2 dalam toilet azab with no hot water! Mana lagi I nak kena do this, do that, register this and that, haiyoh! TENSI!!! Tapi thank GOD after the 3rd week, I was slightly ok… I survived!!!
Enough about introduction – shall not dwell much about that. And I will also NOT dwell about my study life; why? BORING lah. Nanti bohsan pulak mek citer pasal mek top scorer paper nih la, mek on Deans list la, mek nye cgpa nih la itu la… kang korang cakap boring lah, mek nih run run run around the bush before me sampai ke tahap orgasm lah… kan? Betul dak Leez? Kan u ols cakap mek suka pusing2 kona2 dari citer objective sebenar entry mek, kan? So I nak ikut nasihat u ols lah. Straight to the point, ye ke dak Kak Leezie? Miss G aka Miss World also sama u ols! – Dia cakap “Nyeh, tulisan bernas2 tak semestinya panjang2 lebar2. Write short stuffs also kalau points meletop, meletop lah citer kau tu”, kan G, Miss World cum Ex Miss Universe cum Ex Miss Intelligent Universe? Ehehehehe. G dan Leez, jgn marah mek nah. Saje nak buat advert. Leez tak nampak mek buat link kat nama u ols? See – promosi ok!
So two years mek kat MRSM Balik Pulau – it tought me a lot. Seriously. I never knew how to makan UDANG. Seriously, kat MRSM lah mek start belajar makan udang. MRSM lah jugak the place yang telah mengajar me to basuh baju, jemur kain dan iron my uniforms. Dulu at home, either mommy buatkan or my maid yang buatkan semua. Even made my own bed also I learned kat MRSM ok. Basically my point is that MRSM tought me a lot in being independent, gittu.
I was pretty much Miss “Jambu Of The Year” in my school – Yes yes, muntah lah u ols kalau u ols nak, but it’s a fact! Waktu tu dragonrina lite2 sugi ok. How? Malam2 weekend, me and my fellow jambu adik2 friends would amik selimut and lilit2kan kat badan and pretended that it was a lavish evening gown, and we started playing beauty pageants. Yes, my interests dalam dunia peragaan dan jugak beauty pageants lahir way back in schools also, bak kata Che Detz, kan??? And yes, mek always either pemenang or 1st runner-up. Siap ade q/a lagi nih. Mek and Amirul, one of my fellow groupmate, dia also memang minat Miss Miss nih. Every year never missed nak record. 1996 kan Malaysia dak tak show those beauty pageants kat dalam tv. Sanggup call auntie dia in Singapore suruh record the show. Heheeh … Mirul… Mirul…
Ok, here’s the story about my group in MRSM. Back then, me ade this group of jambu adik2 friends, yang seniors labeled as “THE MAGNIFICENT FIVE”- There were 5 of us including me in the group, namely Aizul, Amirul, Sufian, Rizal, and me. Mana2 pergi, the five of us memang akan bersama. Dah la satu dorm semuanye, except Amirul, he was is another dorm but still in the same block. Mandi sesama, berkemban semuanye nih. Ehehehe – Gi makan sesame, jalan gi class/ prep also sama2, petang2 turun bersukan sesama, Aikido class sama2 semua. Yes, back then kitaorang bak kata orang dinch bols dipisahkan dah u ols. And jangan terkejut, Rizal, Sufian, and me, three of us were in the school’s volleyball team ok! Played for district and also states. Active ok. Very bising kami main volleyball... "SEDIA YA? HAAAIIYYAAHH!!! PIRING BERPUTARRRR!!!!!" Very the ala ala citer Jepun dulu tu, Mario Attack? Tah… betul ke idak spelling nye but I’m sure you guys tau what am talking about kan?
Mek on the other hand, also very active in debates and dramas, English Language Society secretary 2 years in a row ok! (yes yes that also explained my drama queen behavior) and that took me to a lot of places around Malaysia yang mek sendiri never been to. Just imagine, at 16, mek baru first time rase gi PERLIS and also PAHANG, how? Very cacatted, kan? Eheheeh. I was in the schools’ debating team since 1st semester, sampai mek completed my 4th semester (dah senior dah waktu itiew, form 5 dah). Our debating team was the nationals 1st runner-up for two straight years ok. (hmm meaning to say ‘badi’ 1st runner-up mek nih also dari school ek? Patutlah terbawak2 sampai waktu bertanding ratu bile dah besar, selalu sangat 1st runner-up! Eheheh)
I remember we staged Puteri Gunung Ledang punye drama, but the puteri was Amirul, how? Dah terserlah keadik2kan, kan? Eheheh. Mek ala ala assistant director aje. Ehehe.
Coming to ‘social’ life in MRSM pulak. MEMANG seronoks you ols. Imagine waktu form 4 lah paling best sbb we had seniors, so terasa lah diri itiew very babyish sikit. Boleh mengada ngada manja over2, seek public attentions also was very easy when we were juniors Bile naik form 5, my group just couldn’t be bothered about our juniors pulak, biarpun yang cando2. Malas ok. Rase macam tua pulak. So waktu form 4 lah, very der you ols,… Meriah ok! We were like the talk of the school. Yer lah, sah sah the 5 of us jer very adik2 pecah lobang ok. We had loads of abang angkats and kakak angkats, I enjoyed the attention also. Weekends the seniors would sell stuffs like chocolates or burgers to collect some money utk either dorm diaorang ke, society ke. Meriah lah jadiknye perkampungan students MRSM itiew. Kiteorang (me and my group, MOST of the time AIZUL jadik mangsa ikut mek) would catwalk from the dorm, semata2 turun gi beli burger kat abang2 seniors can do2 yang sold em itiew. Walhal, tak makan pun. Saje je getek nak membeli. Ade yang kami buat dedications – by 2nd semester, waktu mek semester terakhir as a junior, mek selalu dapat a lot of burgers. Selalunye my rommie yang akan habiskan those burgers. Aizul, Aizul… eheheh.
Speaking of my roomie, now dah jadik cikgu terlatih dah di Sarawak (funny bile dengar cerite minah ketot tu jadik cikgu kepada students2 yang jauh lebih muda tapi tinggi dari dia. Heehhee)… he was the best roommie one could possibly asks for. Memang best you ols berroommate dengan dia. Dia memang hardworking, kuat sentap, and above all, kuat study itiew. I masih ingat lagi. Malam2 lepas prep, or during weekend nights, kalau we decided to study for any exams ke ape ke, ade satu teori u ols leh nampak berlaku dalam our room yang telah menang BEST ROOM OF THE SEMESTER for 4 semesters berturut2! – The theory was; Dia study, mek tidur. Dia tidur, mek also tidur u ols! Ehehehe.
MRSM jugak mengajar mek erti BJ dan anal. Ehehehe – yes yes, try reading THIS ARCHIVE!!! You’ll find out how me lost my a**-virginity at the tender and sweet innocent age of 16! Ehehehe. Happy readings u ols!
Peeps! Tadik, just before me nak tulis what am about to tulis nih, mek dah nearly siapkan satu perenggan about “HANTIAN” – HANTU kes about MRSM BALIK PULAU and the things yang mek went through with these hantian cases. Apa dah jadik? TIBE2 MY PC KAPUT OK! Hilang habis semue dah mek dah agak. But luckily mek typed this entry kat my Microsoft Words so ade auto recovery. Tapi u ols, why suddenly the pc kaput waktu mek nak citer pasal kes hantian Juita yang kacau mek dulu itiew? Funny kan? So anyways, bukak my auto-recovered file, nah! SEMUE STILL INTACT EXCEPT citer perenggan bab hantian Juita. DUA KALI happened ok! So nampak sangat it’s telling me NOT TO WRITE about it. SO I get the point. So mek terpaksa skip kes scarry marry kat MRSM BALIK PULAU – GOD! That scared me a lil – meremang bulu roma mek tetibe. Tsk tsk tsk. Ok NEXT PLEASE?
So mek nak kena bukak citer lain. Hmmm – oh, MRSM jugaklah telah menyebabkan mek habis beratus-ratusan ringgit tau! No, bukan kes duit hilang or kena curi. No no. Mek dulu RATU WALKMAN – everywhere I go, walkman here walkman there. Cannot live without it ok. Actually, to be more precise, I cannot WALK / CATWALK without my music kat my lubang telinga.
Ade sekali itu, mek tengah duduk2 lepak2 kat padang tgk rugby *one of my favorite activity ptg2 waktu dah bergelar senior, since mek tak ade apa apa plan, mek akan listen to my walkman and tgk rugby, sometimes with Aizul, sometimes alone* And that padang, outsiders kadang2 masuk also u ols. Sentap tak one day, this mak cik was sitting there with another 2 makcik. They tgk me one kind, mek tetap pose Future Miss Malaysia pose, smiled and then buat bodoh jer. Waktu diaorang mengumpat mek, I tgh rewind my cassette itiew. NYEH! MAK CIK TU CAKAP “Tsk tsk tsk – kesian kan? Bebudak zaman sekarang. Muda2 dah PEKAK! Dah kena pakai itu alat pembantu pendengaran…” KEZI TAK!?! SO anyways that’s not the point of this paragraph. Alkisahnye, since Jan 1st 1995 sampai mek grad 23rd Dec 1996, I lost a total of 18 SONY WALKMANS yang mahal2 ok! SENTAP TAK!? Selalu je kena curi walkman mek sebab I always took the liberty to get whats best in the market – nah! Amik! Selalu hilang ok! Sedeh sangat!
Bukan walkman jer, now, new paragraph, new item. YES – mek dulu also ratu POSE with CAMERA – mek ALWAYS lah I say always, ALMOST EVERYDAY mek akan snap pics. Tiap2 minggu, ade jer mek akan gi cuci Kodak roll itiew. So talking about camera, sepanjang mek duduk there in MRSM, I lost 3, tapi by end of 2nd semester, the 2nd one yang hilang itiew, telah dipulangkan balik oleh senior yang telah mencurinye dengan alasan NAK PINJAM. Ehehe – sentap tak? Tapi masuk 3rd sem, hilang also that camera – bawak lah 3rd camera gi MRSM – PON HILANG! Masuk 4th semester, mek bawak camera cekai punye gi – Nah! Tak der pulak orang nak curik!? Ehehehe
Apa lagi ek? Study wise nak citer ke? Tak yah la ek. Biase je. Same jer kalau nak citer bab bab study mudy nih. Any other dramas? Erm – mek selalu jadik postman senior boys yang nak tekel bebudak girls juniors. Maklumlah, mek very the close the bebudak girls, be it junior or senior girls. So mek lah ala ala jadik messenger gittiew. Tapi it was worth doin’ also. Mek dapat attention most of the time sbb jadik “most wanted” jambu yang baik hati suke menolong – walhal, I was used tapi at that time, too stupid to realize it. Eheheh.
Dah la kot – mek also tak tau nak citer apa apa dah pasal life mek kat MRSM sbb terlalu interesting sangat. What I do know is that, MRSM Balik Pulau – the best two years of my life there, mek dinch akan forget, sampai bile2!!! Its’s been 9 years since I left that school. But ade some memories still fresh! Banyak bende yang dah berlaku within that 9 years, dan ade jugak antara bende2 tu mek belajar dari MRSM. Me still keep in touch dengan my classmates – we do group emails now and then, just to tannak putuskan tali persahabatan. 3 or 4 of my classmates dah kawin, siap ade yang dah beranak pinak dah nih. Haiyoh… Yes, Krol, one of the 50 Most Eligible Bachelor of the Year fo Clea Mag, was one of my classmates. Memang cando orangnye, dan baik. Click kat nama dia itiew to read up more about him.
Anyways, MRSM telah banyak mengajar mek stuffs and made me who I am now. *that’s something serious, bukan joking punye tone ek* and next year, genaplah 10 tahun mek grad dari MRSM BP and dengar khabar ade big gathering thingie? Entah lah – mek tak update sangat. I only update pasal classmates I jer. Yes, especially Krol. Ehehe Krol, I hope you’re reading this boy. Ehehehehe.
Seriously, I will NEVER ever forget, the place yang telah mengajar mek erti berdikari, a place yang buatkan mek kenal ramai kawan and most of all, the place where I discovered, the real me and most of, the place where I earned what we call it, SPM! Ehehe… MRSM PONDOK UPEH, BALIK PULAU, PENANG – The memories will always stay fresh in my mind… :)
PS - Nak tgk pics2 kat MRSM dulu2 itiew? Tunggu nah - mek nak scan pic2 lelama mek while in MRSM- just got to find where the hell are those pics. Mek rase ade kat KL lah! Hanj hanj sekals!!! Hmmmmmm - cam mana ek? I'll work it out nanti - tgk lah! Tunggu updates on PHOTOS- pasal facts dah tertulis sudah, now nak complete those whole thingie-walk-down-the-memory-lane, kite perlukan those pics. So tunggu jer lah ek?
Thursday, April 07, 2005
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Peeps - just a short one,
This pix, ok dak? Ehehe - mek suke sebab ade element mek dalam notice itiew - TOTAL BITCH! Ehehee. Mek suke mek suke mek suke! I was thinkin' of doin' this as my banner - what say you ols?
Image by STEAL THESE @ blogdrive.com
Commentas pleasenah??? Eheheh - mek menunggu dengan peeeeenuuuhh harapan! Ehehe. Apa itiew commentas pleasenah? Isk isk isk - tak belajar Spanish ka? HAHAHAH - sesuke hati jer cakap itiew bahasa Spanish, mampos aku kena maki dengan Leez ngan Miss G once they read this entry - why? Sah sah dua dua itiew expert in Spanish Latino Langgie... Ehehe. Tak der lah, commentas pleasenah tu tadik, that's my way of saying, COMMENTS PLEASE, nah????? Ehehehehe
Luv,
Nurlea Laurielle
This pix, ok dak? Ehehe - mek suke sebab ade element mek dalam notice itiew - TOTAL BITCH! Ehehee. Mek suke mek suke mek suke! I was thinkin' of doin' this as my banner - what say you ols?
Commentas pleasenah??? Eheheh - mek menunggu dengan peeeeenuuuhh harapan! Ehehe. Apa itiew commentas pleasenah? Isk isk isk - tak belajar Spanish ka? HAHAHAH - sesuke hati jer cakap itiew bahasa Spanish, mampos aku kena maki dengan Leez ngan Miss G once they read this entry - why? Sah sah dua dua itiew expert in Spanish Latino Langgie... Ehehe. Tak der lah, commentas pleasenah tu tadik, that's my way of saying, COMMENTS PLEASE, nah????? Ehehehehe
Luv,
Nurlea Laurielle
I feel bad... but at the same time I feel great!
Dearest all, especially to katadah.Warrior @ the.Guardian7 and Rob,
Guys remember my 'Thank you-wish list' that I made as an entry the other day? The one yang I mentioned names of those who came in for my tagboard chatparty at my blogwarming party? Ok - and so, it's like, remember I said like "ade ke, tak der ke, your names dalam list nih, it doesn't matter much to me sbb all that matters the most to me is that I wanna say is a big THANK YOU? BUZZ! Wrong! I'm NOT ok with it. To me, I want it to be purfecto, I guess...
Dalam list tu I THINK I listed ALMOST everybody's nick yang ade kat chatparty mek hari tu. And true enough, I added TT's nick at the end of the entry *Tukang Taip* sbb just before the party ended, dia joined the taggyboardy. So basically, tak der nye nicknames yang kat party itiew yang mek terleft out, except for these two - katadah.Warrior @ the.Guardian7 and also Rob (sorry Hon, I had to do this), and that's what making me a bit sad.
katadah.Warrior @ the.Guardian7: I don't know who he is or ape ape, anything about him, tapi what I do know is that he's a friend of TT and now a friend of mine, who seriously has this sensitivity in him, and that touched me in many ways - tapi, for all I know, he could be a SHE? LOL! That's not the point. The point is that - true, nama dia jer yang mek tak updated lagi and that actually buatkan mek terasa dinch boleh tidur - mek terlupe nak letak nick dia dalam thank you list tu? Dinch lupe la - just tak teringat time tu sbb dia pun joined in last last minute... *tetap tannak mengaku salah tak letak nick itiew... ehehe*
Rob: This guy however, insisted me to keep his profile, very low and wished not to chat kat my tagboard during the party sebab dia segan. But after today, I noticed he dah managed to blend into the group. What can I say, he's a fast learner. True, I may not know much about him tapi it made me feel worse sbb mek chat dengan dia kat tagboard tu kejap tapi mek dinch included nama dia dlm list? So again - mek dinch puas hati and so I had to do this.
So here it is...
*SMILE+still with SIGH* - I feel sllllllliigggghty better, Thank You Very Much.
Now, the list of names however were like the ones yang datang for my tagboard party on April 5th. So ppl like Miss World @ Miss Gurun, Miss International, fiebieRossa, Zairil, and EVERYONE ELSE, Everybody! yang chats lepas the day, well, you ols - hear this. Walaupun nickname u ols dinch ade for my party and also in the 'Thank-You wish' list, I just wanna let u guys know that I truly appreciate you guys chatting at my tagboard and the support you guys gave me - Especially Fiebs, G, Fir - a big groupie huuggiies and THANK YOU and THAT HUGGIE AND THANKIE YOUIE also to the rest, ok? Mek dinch pilih kasih nah! Semua mek nak ucapkan thank you - "Kalau boleh, saya nak tughun, I wanna say Thank You to each and everyone of you - but that's a bit impossible right? So that's why, I've made a special song for you, and this is called, AKU CINTA PADAMU" - Very Sheila Majid waktu buat concert dulu2 itiew... mek ingat! Mek ingat! Hehehe...
On the other hand - what made me feel great today, I mean, yesterday, was - my tagboard was so lively and so ceria meria and so ramai chatters! Mek suke! Bukan ape, I love chatting and mek suke tgk tagboard mek meriah - bukan popularity wise - tapi mainly mek can make a lot of new friends... Tagboard nih dah like, buatkan mek have like what, not only drag queens and gayboys - but at the same time, I'm very much honored to have straight women and men coming in, bukan sekadar view/reading my blogs - but also chats kattagboard mek. Who they are? Pepandai la figure out yourself tapi - ade kalangan mereka yang straight. So jgn terkejut...
And plus - I learned something from those yang MJ2!! *mulut jahat - actually, since we can't hear 'em and can only read what they type in the tagboard, I'd say JJ - Jari Jahat! Eheheh* - These 'unwelcomed guests' which I welcomed also and were also dalam my thank list - why? Sebab I believe that they have a reason for doing the things they did or saying/typing the things yang popped up kat tagboard tu, and basically they're only human - so I have to face life, people and reality. So what's the thing I learned I guess. Sakit hati dengan tulisan mereka? DELETE saje... ehehe. And plus - buat donno. HEHEHEHE
SIGH+SMILING I feel MUCH better - NOW I think I can go to bed... Goodnight everyone!!!
PS - Should you guys nak tgk pics2 chatters or those yang baca/viewbiew my blogmog iminimie - click jer kat LOGO CAMERA WITH FLASH itiew. Yangmana? Yang ado atas tagboard mek and also BAWAH tagboard mek. Yang mana? HAIYOHH!!!
Kalau tak nampak jugak, TOLONG LAH KOREK BIJIK MATA ANDA ITIEW! Eehehe.
Its a GALLERY of pics - NO NOT MINE! Pic of CHATTERS and also blog-readers/viewers lah! Haiyoh!
May I sleep in peace and dream of my one and only hunk, Marcus Schenkenberg!!!! Marcus babeh, bile nak pinang I nih!?!?! U nak suruh I tunggu sampai bile!? ESOK MASIH ADE? NAN ADO!!! Ehheheh... Goodnight u ols!
Guys remember my 'Thank you-wish list' that I made as an entry the other day? The one yang I mentioned names of those who came in for my tagboard chatparty at my blogwarming party? Ok - and so, it's like, remember I said like "ade ke, tak der ke, your names dalam list nih, it doesn't matter much to me sbb all that matters the most to me is that I wanna say is a big THANK YOU? BUZZ! Wrong! I'm NOT ok with it. To me, I want it to be purfecto, I guess...
Dalam list tu I THINK I listed ALMOST everybody's nick yang ade kat chatparty mek hari tu. And true enough, I added TT's nick at the end of the entry *Tukang Taip* sbb just before the party ended, dia joined the taggyboardy. So basically, tak der nye nicknames yang kat party itiew yang mek terleft out, except for these two - katadah.Warrior @ the.Guardian7 and also Rob (sorry Hon, I had to do this), and that's what making me a bit sad.
katadah.Warrior @ the.Guardian7: I don't know who he is or ape ape, anything about him, tapi what I do know is that he's a friend of TT and now a friend of mine, who seriously has this sensitivity in him, and that touched me in many ways - tapi, for all I know, he could be a SHE? LOL! That's not the point. The point is that - true, nama dia jer yang mek tak updated lagi and that actually buatkan mek terasa dinch boleh tidur - mek terlupe nak letak nick dia dalam thank you list tu? Dinch lupe la - just tak teringat time tu sbb dia pun joined in last last minute... *tetap tannak mengaku salah tak letak nick itiew... ehehe*
Rob: This guy however, insisted me to keep his profile, very low and wished not to chat kat my tagboard during the party sebab dia segan. But after today, I noticed he dah managed to blend into the group. What can I say, he's a fast learner. True, I may not know much about him tapi it made me feel worse sbb mek chat dengan dia kat tagboard tu kejap tapi mek dinch included nama dia dlm list? So again - mek dinch puas hati and so I had to do this.
So here it is...
*SMILE+still with SIGH* - I feel sllllllliigggghty better, Thank You Very Much.
Now, the list of names however were like the ones yang datang for my tagboard party on April 5th. So ppl like Miss World @ Miss Gurun, Miss International, fiebieRossa, Zairil, and EVERYONE ELSE, Everybody! yang chats lepas the day, well, you ols - hear this. Walaupun nickname u ols dinch ade for my party and also in the 'Thank-You wish' list, I just wanna let u guys know that I truly appreciate you guys chatting at my tagboard and the support you guys gave me - Especially Fiebs, G, Fir - a big groupie huuggiies and THANK YOU and THAT HUGGIE AND THANKIE YOUIE also to the rest, ok? Mek dinch pilih kasih nah! Semua mek nak ucapkan thank you - "Kalau boleh, saya nak tughun, I wanna say Thank You to each and everyone of you - but that's a bit impossible right? So that's why, I've made a special song for you, and this is called, AKU CINTA PADAMU" - Very Sheila Majid waktu buat concert dulu2 itiew... mek ingat! Mek ingat! Hehehe...
On the other hand - what made me feel great today, I mean, yesterday, was - my tagboard was so lively and so ceria meria and so ramai chatters! Mek suke! Bukan ape, I love chatting and mek suke tgk tagboard mek meriah - bukan popularity wise - tapi mainly mek can make a lot of new friends... Tagboard nih dah like, buatkan mek have like what, not only drag queens and gayboys - but at the same time, I'm very much honored to have straight women and men coming in, bukan sekadar view/reading my blogs - but also chats kattagboard mek. Who they are? Pepandai la figure out yourself tapi - ade kalangan mereka yang straight. So jgn terkejut...
And plus - I learned something from those yang MJ2!! *mulut jahat - actually, since we can't hear 'em and can only read what they type in the tagboard, I'd say JJ - Jari Jahat! Eheheh* - These 'unwelcomed guests' which I welcomed also and were also dalam my thank list - why? Sebab I believe that they have a reason for doing the things they did or saying/typing the things yang popped up kat tagboard tu, and basically they're only human - so I have to face life, people and reality. So what's the thing I learned I guess. Sakit hati dengan tulisan mereka? DELETE saje... ehehe. And plus - buat donno. HEHEHEHE
SIGH+SMILING I feel MUCH better - NOW I think I can go to bed... Goodnight everyone!!!
PS - Should you guys nak tgk pics2 chatters or those yang baca/viewbiew my blogmog iminimie - click jer kat LOGO CAMERA WITH FLASH itiew. Yangmana? Yang ado atas tagboard mek and also BAWAH tagboard mek. Yang mana? HAIYOHH!!!
Kalau tak nampak jugak, TOLONG LAH KOREK BIJIK MATA ANDA ITIEW! Eehehe.
Its a GALLERY of pics - NO NOT MINE! Pic of CHATTERS and also blog-readers/viewers lah! Haiyoh!
May I sleep in peace and dream of my one and only hunk, Marcus Schenkenberg!!!! Marcus babeh, bile nak pinang I nih!?!?! U nak suruh I tunggu sampai bile!? ESOK MASIH ADE? NAN ADO!!! Ehheheh... Goodnight u ols!
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