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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

"Over and Done with"


Miss Miserable: *cry cry*

Miss Miserable's Friend: awat nyeh???

Miss Miserable: aku igt aku dah over and done with him
Miss Miserable: tapi kenapa bila tahu kes dia nak kawen
Miss Miserable: aku jadi sedih sampai tercungap2 aku nangis nih
Miss Miserable: benci la

Miss Miserable's Friend: erk
Miss Miserable's Friend: lorrr
Miss Miserable's Friend: maknenye
Miss Miserable's Friend: itu hanye pikiran ko
Miss Miserable's Friend: ko rase ko dah done
Miss Miserable's Friend: but deeeeeeep in ur heart
Miss Miserable's Friend: u r not dear

Miss Miserable: i hate him for doing this to me!
Miss Miserable: I HATE HIM!

Miss Miserable's Friend: it's not him
Miss Miserable's Friend: tak perlu nak hate him and i know u dont hate him
Miss Miserable's Friend: it's u baby, just u

Miss Miserable: me?

Miss Miserable's Friend: yerp
Miss Miserable's Friend: it's u n ur feeling
Miss Miserable's Friend: everything is on u babe
Miss Miserable's Friend: u can make urself happy
Miss Miserable's Friend: n vice versa

Miss Miserable: but knowing everything - makes me sick

Miss Miserable's Friend: choose to be happy then

Miss Miserable: im trying to
Miss Miserable: only god knows how hard am trying

Miss Miserable's Friend: he's just express himself
Miss Miserable's Friend: don't get carried away dear
Miss Miserable's Friend: u r strong
Miss Miserable's Friend: i know u can

Miss Miserable: he expressed the fact that hes gettng married
Miss Miserable: and for goodness sake he doesnt even love that girl

Miss Miserable's Friend: how can u say that?
Miss Miserable's Friend: he doesn't love her?

Miss Miserable: he calls her names and bla bla bla
Miss Miserable: he's using her to divert his feelings and thoughts

Miss Miserable's Friend: then u should be thankful he's not using u as he's using her
Miss Miserable's Friend: ko nak cakap ape2 ngan aku ke?

Miss Miserable: nak but i dont know where to begin
Miss Miserable: i just wanna cry cry and cry je

Miss Miserable's Friend: cry as u want
Miss Miserable's Friend: i'm always here if u need an ear

Miss Miserable: why? why ME yang diduga diuji cam gini? WHY ME?

Miss Miserable's Friend: because u r a tough person dear
Miss Miserable's Friend: Tuhan tak uji org yg lemah
Miss Miserable's Friend: He knows u well
Miss Miserable's Friend: very well
Miss Miserable's Friend: betul tak?
Miss Miserable's Friend: erm..ko..tenang dulu...
Miss Miserable's Friend: mmg la sedih..tp tahla..ujian ni u..
Miss Miserable's Friend: jgn pk sgt..
Miss Miserable's Friend: makin u pikir makin u sedih..
Miss Miserable's Friend: ape2 just give me a call

Miss Miserable: kenape la me tak leh nak lupakan dia

Miss Miserable's Friend: boleh la
Miss Miserable's Friend: cume u yg taknak kan?
Miss Miserable's Friend: u bleh lupe kan die
Miss Miserable's Friend: cume bende ni amik masa laa
Miss Miserable's Friend: die takleh nak hilang terus camtu
Miss Miserable's Friend: u kene kuat!
Miss Miserable's Friend: aku tau kau kuat..

Miss Miserable: I hate my life! I hate myself!

Miss Miserable's Friend: bullshit!
Miss Miserable's Friend: everyone has a choice in their lives
Miss Miserable's Friend: u hate ur life, meaning u choose to hate it
Miss Miserable's Friend: know this - love is all that matters
Miss Miserable's Friend: meanwhile...
Miss Miserable's Friend: you continue shopping around

Miss Miserable: HAHAHAH!
Miss Miserable: thats a good one!

Miss Miserable's Friend: there will be someone who understands some things are for keeps in the future. anyways, bila nak shopping?

Funny kan? I mean - when u think that u're "Over and Done" with that particular someone, when you KNOW u're done with it - but the actual fact is that - u're not. It somehow clashes things up; like you think, you know that u're over it but for true fact, you not. So, does that mean that you're lying to yourself? I guess in a way, yes la kot but entirely I think it is not your fault (whoever la you may be kan - tak der specifically pointing fingers kat sesiape pon in this entry) Sebab for me, walaupun the truth is that u're not over and done with that someone kan, tapi still, u've been working so hard to forget about things between u and him la kan; so in a way, you macam trying to convience yourself that you're ok now and dah moved on, tapi when you break down cam dalam that example chat kat atas tu - that doesn't mean you're lying to yourself, entirely, KAN?

Gawd - where am I taking all these to lar, kan? Hiks! My point is... hmmmm.... actually I should have said - My point(s) ARE... you have a choice but you're not doin' anything about it i.e not choosing any solutions. And secondly I think my point would be it is NORMAL to feel this way kot?

Trying to forget someone and move on with your life, adekalanye senang (for some people) and for MOST people, susah. I admit it, memang susah. Facing the reality yang cinta tak kesampaian, or the one u sayang sangat² tu gonna end up marrying someone else ke ape ke, itu boleh dilaksanakan lagi. But forgetting him and move on, its true - memang it'll take some times. And sometimes, some ppl wished that that 'some time' tu would be a fast one so that why? So that they don't have to feel as miserable as our little Miss Miserable up there. Ahaks!

I think I've done an entry similar to this - on how to forget HIM and move along, kan? But what makes this entry different, is that it somehow expresses the fact that it's ok to feel DQ about it. Since, maybe you sayang gila² kat this particular guy, and when he ends up marrying someone else, you tend to naik angin. Normal la kot? Tapi to prolong the DQness tu - tah la, some might say, buang karan jer - might as well move on. But for me, I think I tannak agree with this ppl. You think things are easy to be done ah? It's always easier said than done. Forgetting him is one thing - but moving along ALONE and knowing the fact that he is moving on too, WITH SOMEONE ELSE (regardless dia sayang ke tidak that new person) itu I must say, memang perit.

Our mind starts to generate throughts, vivid imaginations...

"Ape dia tgh buat dengan org tu at this present moment?"

"Kenape dia dengan aku tak boleh nak go on?"

"Bahagia ke tidak dia nanti?"

That you cannot help it la kan. Although some ppl cakap.. "It's all in you. It's all in your mind. Only you can stop your mind from thinking about it" True, tapi it is also DILUAR kawalan kita. Sometimes, cam, erm... kita dah set... TAK NAK. Tapi alih² lain pulak jadinya, WHY? That's the main question yang sometimes I myself pon cannot get the answer.

Moral of the story here, is this - why sometimes when you think you can do it but the truth is you can't? Why sometimes you think that you can control things, but the truth is you can't? Why sometimes kan you feel like it's all over - but it's only just the begining? Those are the qs yang I cannot give and still remains unknown, to me la kan. Anyone ade anything to say?



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Posted at 6:25:37 pm by Nurlea Laurielle Lai Lee Abdullah

spankie
March 1, 2006   03:59 PM PST
 
Shit. Frankly that's my biggest fear ; when my partner has decided to bow down to society's expectation and be straight!!

The saddest quote on anything would be "It could've been!"

Cheer up girl :)
You can do it if u put ur mind into it.
Spankie
March 1, 2006   06:33 PM PST
 
Thanks luv! :)



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