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Friday, July 08, 2005

ONCE UPON A TIME, I WAS THAT SHOWGIRL - Episode 19


From the last episode... Episode 18: 1st half of 2004 Part 2(iii) - Unexpected results, Miss Diva Warp 2004

Sambil angkat gelas, Dia berkata
Dia: Ko jangan sampai aku hempuk gelas nih kang!

Friend: Haiyoh nak hempuk mek? Ampunkan mek ampunkan mek (dalam nada sindiran) Tapi betul lah nyeh, Loreal pon ori jugak malam tu. Cuma dia tak der lah sampai berbedah2 kan? Hehehehe... ala nyeh, cuba buang RM90k kat badan dan muka ko tu, harus sama level ngan Loreal jugak!!!!!

Terus diam katanye itiew si DIA itiew. Terus belah cam tu jer. Then terus la mek dapat panggilan di telefon bimbitkiew, yang menceritakan segala yang berlaku (mek dinch hui, propahan ataupun kejadian itiew benar2 berlaku - tapi bukan sorang dua yang bercerita, ramai gak. So it must have been betul la kot? Hurmmmm) - Anyways, ramai cakap, mujur mek dinch ade kat situ. Kalau idak, ntah2 kena hempuk dah dengan si DIA itiew. Aiyoh! Mek takuts! - pengsan japs!

Episode 19: 1st half of 2004 Part 2(iv) - And then everything seems to go wrong again (summary of the rest of the pageants competed)

In this entry, mek akan buat concentrasion pada contests2 yang tiada arti dalam hedopkiew lagiks; the last few beauty pageants yang I decided to compete in - tapi still, dinch ada artinya lagik! (like, suddenly, prestasi mek merudum jatuh, semangat puncak dinch ade... I vonder why? Hurmmmm) And to start things off, lets start with Miss Universe World 2004. (text2 nih ade yang dipetik dari entrykiew yang pasal Miss Universe World 2005 tu ler... hehehehe - ade penambahan2 sikit if u notice la ek... ehehe)

I remembered clearly I took part as Miss South Africa - boy that was a change as I normally would take up South Americana coutries especially Columbia and Mexico...

Basically I didn't wanna compete (the fakta2 MALAS dan dah tiada kewujudan mood tu ler). But since a good friend of mine insisted that me to compete, and dia nak sponsor my evening dress, which dia berbelanja like, wooohoo! Banyak jugak, so - tannak menghampakan niat kawan, mek masuk also on last minute notice (ehem ehem, VW!). Picked up South Africa since itu jer country yang available, like - another 3 weeks before pageant itiew baru I decided to compete.

So the usuals, me shop for dresses and what not - not to mention my friend nih designed the Versace-look Evening wear, in shocking yellow and green colour - so last year's hottest colours around. Ehehe. (tapi reminder, mood dinch ade so shopping ala ala kadar jer...)

Preparations made, although ala kadar je (sseee!!! I told u ols, mek dinch feeling2 nak masuk sangat contest nih). As usual, bile dah dekat seminggu to the contest, persiapan ala kadar dah siap, and dari semangat biase biase aje terus berkobar2 nak compete, very DQ - the usual me. (Eeeerrrrrrr - cam mana nak sexplain ek? Haiyoh! Serious. Mood dan Feeling nak compete tu dinch ade tapi, biase lah, bile dah dekat nak contest jer, erm, ade lah itu sedikit perubahan pada mood dan feeling.. can't blame me waaat) Mula2 feeling like "oh well, it's just another contests- win or lose, dinch kisah" but NOPE! Just before the contest, I started setting up high expectations... my fault, my mistake. (yerrrr, mek mengaku mek salah, ok?!!!!)

So I managed to get into the top 15 semifinalists and I was like one of the talked about contestant to be in the top 10, tapi, NAN ADO! Didn't get through into the final 10. Tsk tsk tks - as usual, me, went down the stage, CRIED like nobody's business. Walhal apa la sangat mek keluarkan for that contest? Registration fees, sponsored. Evening dress, sponsored. Casual sponsored... mek bayar make up and also bawak pasang badan jer for that night. I know I know I tak patut sentap tapi if you guys were there, ugrh! (padahal mek rase memula waktu sebelum nak enroll masuk pageant tu, bukan kah mek dinch ade mood dan hanya sekadar berserah dan masuk aje contest nih? Habis tu, motif nak sentap? LOL!!!)

BUT SERIOUSLY if you ask me now, to tell u guys in detail from A to Z about last years Miss Universe World 2004 - MEMANG I takkan citer sngt, dah sebab MEMANG MEK TAK AMIK PORT lepas I didn't make it into the final cut 10. Sentap! Tak concentrate dah pun. Seingat mek, mek dah kat dalam bilik dah, dok huuuu huuuu sokkksekk soksekkk nangis! Dan ini secara tidak langsung (eh? Ke secara langsung? Hurmmm) telah membuatkan mek lebih frust menonggeng tertonggeng2 dan ia telah menjejaskan concentrasi with my other contests selepas2 itiew.

The next 3 contests, I'd say, although mek dinch all out also, tapi, kire my pencapaian, tak der lah teruk sangat compared to MUW2004 tu. Like, mek masuk Queen of the Night, Supermodel Diva, ngan Desert Queen 2004 - semuanye mek berjaya tempah spot ke finals (kire jadik finalist lah kan) - tapi pon, ia tetap tidak mampu regain back my semangat puncak nusantara (mati la kau csi_X) mek dalam arena beauty pageants nih.

I also confused lah at that time, maybe I was all sick and tired of competing? Ade kah mek dah tak berminat nak bertanding? Ke the fact that mek sentap asyik dok kalahhhh aje asyiklah menghantui pemikiran kiew? I was confused - and I didn't know....

Cuma it all hit me like dibaling batu besau dan sedarkan mek yang, THAT'S IT!; I've had enuff competing, waktu mek bertanding Miss Diva of The Year 2004. Contest nih adalah sama penganjur, sama concept cuma berlainan nama jer dengan Superdiva 2002 (the first ever drag queen transgender contest yang mek masuk dolo2 tu). During that contest, mek dah dapat rasekan something different, like, very sesuatuh sangat. And so, after dapat layakkan diri ke semifinals, mek yang sediakala terasa sesuatuh tu, proceed la jugak masuk ke semifinals; and malam semifinals tu, adalah malam everything yang telah menyedarkan mek that I nak quit masuk beauty pageants. Tapi masalahnye, that feeling came to me 2 hours before the semifinals started. So macam, dah la I felt a bit weird, and then, I felt tetibe very der very confused sangat, and on top of everything, I was worried about what will happen if mek proceed with the idea of nak stop competing tu; sampai it affected me so much malam tu. I arrived at the venue, very pening kepala, jalan melelong sangat, and I started crying, feeling loya nak muntah and what not - started talking nonsense (very DQ yang bukan dibuat2 - I dont know what was I thinking waktu tu tau) and lebih menakutkan semua, I wasn't able to walk properly and do my catwalk (serious! menakutkan sangat waktu tu!); Siap diaorang ingat I was on E or some sort of drugs ke ape ke... then, with the help of limau ais, and some time to relax, mek redah jugak semifinals tu, knowing I will not get into the finals, and just, gagahi jua contest tu for the sake of nak habiskan aje malam tu. And I did, and yeap, I didn't make it into the finals...

And then... the next day, when I woke up from bed...

Next up: Episode 20: End of 1st half of 2004 - The statement I made which changed everything - and the fact that I dropped out from continuing most of the contests after I made that SOTY itiew! LOL!



Nurlea Laurielle Lai Lee Abdullah
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Posted at 2:01:44 am by Nurlea Laurielle Lai Lee Abdullah

xx
July 8, 2005   07:25 AM PDT
 
mood changes tu sebab hang dah menopouse kot?
BeBe
July 8, 2005   01:24 PM PDT
 
haiyyyoohhh!!! tak sabar nak tau apa jadi selepas ittew.. very der sesuatuhh!!
AdamdrAgx
October 23, 2005   10:31 PM PDT
 
SPEECHLESSS!!! Unexpected posting.....

NEXT!!!

AdamdrAgx



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